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Saturday, July 6, 2013

Today I made up my mind to begin to write the first short text, where I try to put it all together, which I now have announced to do the last six months. Then I first began to make a schematic description of the beginning of my daughter's life. This was her situation the first three and a half years of her life. Such pictures make me get a clearer relation to the situation I try to find out about and understand. These pictures are schematic descriptions which shows something important.

After that I start to think that some images from this beginning of an individuals life, would be in place. So here are five images from the first half year of my daughter's life. She was born in the middle of the summer 1975. And these images are from the summer 1975 to Christmastime in December 1975.

Here is where we lived the first year of my daughter's life. We lived in a little flat in the basement in this house, with entrance door out in the little garden to the right on the bottom on this little house. The floor in the flat was at the same level as the ground. The whole summer this was a nice place where we could be out in the garden on the right an behind the house. There we had chairs and a table, and we could be outside the whole day if the weather was good. Near by, some minutes only to walk, there was a large outdoor space with playgrounds, sports fields, animals, and wooded areas. To this place my daughter come home for the first time in her life.

Here my daughter is together with here mother at this small and idyllic place. There was many things to watch. And her parents did many things she could be attentive to. Here mother made our cloths and other such things, and drew and painted pictures etc. I made all our furniture and other useful things. We was interested in healthy food. For example we often had malt beer (non-alcoholic beer which taste a little like fizzy lemonade) to the dinner, that was something we drank much of, which was usual to do at that time. To our daughter we bought some kitchen equipments, designed to made food to small babies, so we could made food to her from fresh raw materials instead of buying canned goods to here. Our daughter was together with us in all we were doing, and she was a glad child who soon started to laugh and have much fun.

Here I am drawing a working drawing to something I shall make. I think it was a dual-purposed deposit box and drawing stand, which I made to my wife who liked to do such things. I made different special adapted things. The first year of our daughter's life; my wife and I made many different things, and all the time we was in contact with our daughter who got more and more interested in what was going on close around her.

Here is a happy child who think it is fun to take a bath. The carpenter's bench behind her I had made from unplaned boards which I saw lengthwise and crosswise and planed. I made the clamps of large screw bars and large nuts which it was possible to buy. I could dismount and mount the bench, but here the carpenter's bench also was used as a ordinary table. One day a person come from the public health centre to see how our child lived. And that person got very positive and said satisfied and definitely that this child has a good life.

Here it is Christmas time. At that time we also was much together with both my wife's family and my family. The first year of her life, our daughter was a happy child. And all the time I saw her to she was ten and a half year old, she was a happy child. After that, I know that my child has become sad, and that is because they have taken her father away from her, which is very evil to do. I also know that her mother become sad, because everything turned bad, and she understood less and less as it becomes worse and worse.

My goal is to find out about this and understand what has happened, so that our situation can be better again. Now I wonder if something has happened early in the summer 1976 or early before that again. Because I remember that I told my wife that when I should take the qualifying examination as an electrician June 17, 1976, at the birthday of my daughter; she could travel to her family for a short time, so I could prepare to get a really good qualifying examination. What then happened, was that my wife one day told me that she had to travel away from me. I did not understand anything at all. We continued to have much to do with each other, like a camping trip and many other things, so that was strange. Because of this, I did not prepare for my qualifying examination at all, I only was occupied of this new situation which was something surprising for me. I got the mark 1,78 at the examination, 1 is the best. But I did not care about it, and had not prepared anything for it at all. I wonder if this can be because of something they had done to me, to get me to talk about this in a way I was influenced to, so it all went wrong. Or maybe they had got to do something with others too, even before they did something to me. But this is something I started to think about now, and nothing I have thought more that a little about. Later that summer, we moved together again in a much larger flat, something which had happened in any case anyhow.

David H. Hegg