In 1975 Comment In 1975 is the same text I wrote December 29, 2017; as the text 200. When it took place, under Miscellaneous. In this text I give an account about what happened the morning I was “influenced”. It is a description of where and how this happened. It is about what happened before the “influences”, a little about something which happened when I was “influenced”, and a little about what happened afterwards. December 31, 2017. In 1975 From January earlier this year, and until today, I gradually have remembered more about what happened the day I was “influenced”, December 29, 1975. I don’t remember the “influences”, but I remember clearly what happened before the “influences”. Some details can be indistinct, but in broad outline I now remember it all clearly. During this year, all the pieces in the big picture, in broad outline, have fallen into place about what happened. In the beginning earlier this year, it was fragmented and disconnected pieces in my mind. In this text, I will write about it in the way it is possible for me to do today. I will use some time, some days, but not much time. I will not look back on what I have written earlier this year, I will see what I now can write straight out of my head. It is now 42 years since this happened. The first piece, which has fallen into place, is that I remember how I started to work in the bank. When it still was, that I was new at that place, the other electrician who I worked together with, said that he had taken some days off in connection with the national holidays in December regarding Christmas and New Year’s Eve. Because he then got a vacation for eleven days. The contact we had in the electrical company we worked for, had taken the same days off. I said that then I also could take these days off. But the other electrician said that it wasn’t necessary. It is always something to do here, so it will be something to do for you these days, he said. Later the contact in our electrical company told me, that he just now had got a new job in the bank, which would be a proper job for me. It was a room near to the administration of the bank, which had been unused, that the bank now wanted to start to use. Because of that, it was necessary to do some work with the electrical installation in the room. This would take some time, and I could also have that job to do, when the other electrician and he had some days off. I was an apprentice, but because I was at the end of my apprenticeship, I could work alone now and then. The contact said that I didn’t have to care about the administration. I could care about the job, and not care about them, he said. I started on this job before Christmas. The other electrician came now and then, and looked at how it went, and I didn’t have any problems with doing the job. Just before Christmas, I told the contact in the electrical company that I had bought a notebook, where I had written down the phone number to our company. Then he said that I should get a phone number to another person in the electrical company, who I could phone. And I wrote that name and the phone number on the top of the first page of the notebook. This person hadn’t been cleared for security, therefore he couldn’t come into the bank. But I could phone him, and it was only a few minutes for me to walk to the electrical company and talk with him, if it was necessary. But everything went well with the job, and it didn’t look like it would be any problems for me when I was alone. The contact said to me, that if I got something else to do, then I had to call this other person, and get another order number for that job. When my wife, our daughter and I celebrated Christmas Eve, Wednesday, December 24, 1975; we were together with my family at their place. When we sat at the dinner table, I told about the job I should do after Christmas, and that I should work alone. I talked about that it was a nice job, which I was doing there. I only talked about it for some minutes. I talked about that we used to have the first meal break at a café 9 AM to 9:30 AM, where we met other electricians from our company. And I said that I also should do that on Monday, when I worked alone. The second meal break, 1 PM to 1:30 PM, was at the canteen in the bank. ▪ Monday morning, December 29, 1975; I came to the changing room as usual. The changing room was at the top of an old small building, on the other side of the street outside the bank. I had to go over the street, and around the corner, to come into the bank. I think I took a cup of coffee, before I went over to the bank. We couldn’t start to work before the bank had opened. Normally that was 8 AM, because that was the time it was possible to come into the rooms inside the bank. I wanted to come as early as possible, and because the room I worked in wasn’t locked, I had talked with the other electrician about that I could start 7:45 AM. Pretty precisely 7:45 AM I went from the sidewalk and into the bank. The security guard knew me. I took the elevator up to the top floor, and walked over to the room where I worked. I had started to take out the tools and the things I should work with, when a person came and asked me to come with him. Before Christmas I had tidied all these things together. I remember the person as gray; gray‐haired, gray pants and gray jacket. I remember him as a little shorter than average height, and a little bit more plump than average size. First, the person asked if it was I, who worked with the electrical installation there. I answered yes. He asked if I could come with him and look at something with the electrical installation. I said that he had started early on the job. He answered that it was much to do. I asked what it was. He said that it only was something they wanted, that I should look at. I asked if he could tell a little bit about what it was. But he repeat that they only wanted that I should look at something. I said that then I had to take with me some small tools. He answered that it wasn’t necessary, it was only something I should look at. I said that I had to write it on another order number. He said that it wasn’t necessary, because it was them who paid for it all. I said that I had to write different jobs on different order numbers. Then he said that it only would take a short time, it was near by, and it wasn’t much, he said. I said that I could fix the order number afterwards, if it took so much time, that it was necessary. I looked at the clock on my wrist, I think it was 7:52 AM, and then I went together with him. I think we only walked a few meters. We came to a corridor outside a door. Three other people stood there. A dark‐haired person stood on the right side of the corridor, facing the door. I remember him as the youngest of them, with average height and size. He didn’t have gray clothing. It is impossible for me now to give a correct age. But I remember him as young, around 20 ‐ 30 years old maybe. A gray person stood on the left side beyond the door. I remember him as with similar height and size, as the person who came for me. Beyond him again, stood the third person in the background. I remember him also as gray. These two are indistinct. I am not sure about what was said first, but maybe the person who came for me, said; here we are. Maybe I asked what the problem was. The person who came for me, said yes, what is the problem. The dark‐haired said, oh, that; we have already put it in order. It wasn’t anything wrong. We only thought it was something wrong. But we found out that everything was in order. I am not sure about what the words exactly were. Maybe the person who came for me, said that then it isn’t something to look at. And the dark‐haired answered yes. The dark‐haired talked to me, and said that they only wanted to talk with me. He said that they were there because they wanted to talk with me. I said something about that it maybe wasn’t so much to do because it was Christmas time. The dark‐haired said something about that they only were there because they wanted to be there, it wasn’t anything to do. I thought that the person who came for me, had much to do, and these other people didn’t have anything to do, that was odd. I am not sure about the order of these statements. I wondered in my thoughts about if they had fun with me, but I didn’t think about that it was something dangerous. But I found it odd. All the four people were friendly and glad. The dark‐haired said that the person inside the office wanted to talk with me. And he asked me if I wanted to talk with him. I didn’t understand what he should talk about with me. But I answered yes, because I wanted to be polite. How this situation had developed these minutes, surprised me again and again, in a way I didn’t stop to think about. How the situation developed, took control over me, in a way I didn’t understand. I wondered if it could be that he wanted, that I should begin to work as an electrician in the bank, and I thought about that I didn’t want to do that, I wanted to continue to work in the electrical company I was employed by. The dark‐haired asked the others if the person inside the office was ready to talk with me. The person beyond the door, opened the door halfway; maybe he knocked at the door, and talked with the person inside the office. He opened the door completely, and said something about that I could go in and talk with him. When I went in to the office, this situation had driven me through different happenings, which I hadn’t considered what were. I had some thoughts about that it could have to do with something about my work; the work I was doing, or maybe he wanted that I should start to work there. I thought about that I didn’t want, to begin to work as an employed electrician by the bank. I thought about that I shouldn’t be there for a long time, that I should hurry back to the work I was doing. I didn’t know who the person at the office was, but I think he was the senior executive and most important leader of that large bank. I don’t remember exactly how we started to talk, but I remember it as if the person inside the office started to talk about, that I was working there. I think that is correct. He asked if I liked to work there. I answered that I liked to work there. I said that I was an apprentice, and that I was there because I should learn. I think he quickly asked me if he could offer me something to drink. It surprised me, I thought about that I shouldn’t think that this person was doing something wrong, and I thought that I had to be polite, and I answered yes. He said that he only had such glasses, that was a glass, which was a little too small for soda pop and such things. He asked if I liked what he took out from a cabinet behind him, I think it maybe was lemonade. I answered yes. I have also thought about that it could have been seltzer. When he had given me the glass, he said that he just had drunk something, and that he wasn’t thirsty, and didn’t want to have something to drink himself. I think that I thought about, that I also just had drunk coffee at the changing room, and that I only had said yes to be polite. Now I think that all these people knew that I and the other electrician usually drank a cup of coffee before we started to work in the morning. And I now think that he also knew that, when he said that he just had drunk something, and didn’t want to have something to drink himself. He said something about that I had to drink and enjoy the drink. He asked if it tasted good. I answered yes. The person made a comment about that I was standing. He said that he had set out a chair for me. I hadn’t thought to be there long, and said that I could stand. It is a good chair, he said. I don’t remember what I answered, maybe it was that I couldn’t be there long, so I was standing. The person also talked about that I looked at someone in my electrician company, as my boss; and not him there in the bank, as my boss. I answered something about that I worked for my electrician company. I think that the conversation changed, after the contents in the glass had started to get effect on me. And that he after that, started to ask me about my years of growth. He asked me about my first five years, and he asked about my years after that. He asked about if it was my parents and I, who lived in the little house in the garden, the first five years of my life. And he asked if it was we who lived in the row house we moved to in 1960. He also mentioned the location of the house. I remember it as he talked about that he knew something about that. It was some talk about these things. He also talked about that it was some people who didn’t like me der. I didn’t know anything about that. I think there can have been some different talk, but this was a short period. I think that what was important for him, was to find out that I was the person, he thought I was. But I didn’t understand that when I stood there. It hadn’t lasted long, when he said that I wasn’t well, and got up and helped me to lie down on a sofa or something similar. He said that I needed a doctor, and that I was lucky, because it was a doctor there. He opened the door, and a person came in. He sat down beside me, and said that it was he, who had come and asked me to come with him. I remember it as if the other person said to him about me, that “it is him”. The person beside me, answered, “that is good”. The person beside me said that he was a doctor, and that he should help me. I had then become dizzy, and I understood that I couldn’t move my arms and my body. I understood that it was something wrong, which happened. The person beside me said that I needed something to drink. I remember it as if the other person said that he had saved this, and he gave the person beside me the same glass as I had started to drink from some minutes earlier. The person beside me said that it was good, and he lifted up my head with his left hand, and poured the glass into me with his right hand. There were some more talk, but not much. I remember that the person beside me held a pocket watch in front of my face, and he let the pocket watch oscillate back and forth in front of my face. He said that I should look at that. He said that it would get me well again. I understood that he wanted to “influence” me. I thought that he mustn’t succeed in doing that. That is the last clear thoughts I remember that I had, before I don’t remember anything clear thoughts anymore. It is as if my clear thoughts stopped in that moment. Now I don’t remember any more thoughts after that. What I write here, is what I now have a clear conscious memory of. ▪ After I had started to remember something about how the “influences” were done against me, earlier this year, I remembered that I in a way became halfway conscious, when I still was under control of how the person beside me was “influencing” me. I remember it as if I wake up into a darkness. In that moment I thought something about the person beside me, which was, that “you aren’t God, you are the Devil in hell, I don’t say anything to you”. Every time I remember this moment, I have a picture in my mind’s eye, of dark, smoky and lifeless ruins of war. I heard the person say that he didn’t get any answer. I ask questions, but I don’t get any answers; he said. He has fallen asleep, he said. First, I didn’t know where I was. I didn’t know what year or day it was. And I didn’t know anything about why I was there. Everything was dark for me, as if I only could here, but nothing else. When the person at the office said; that now he should have been at the café, now they soon will start to miss him; I understood that he talked about the café where I should have been at 9 AM. He talked some more, and little by little I understood where I was. He said that now they maybe soon will phone and ask about me, then they had to say that everything is as it shall be, or something like that. The person at the office said that I couldn’t remember when or where it was. I little by little understood that it was the first day I was working alone, and that it was Monday, when I worked there alone. They talked a little about such things, and I understood more and more where I was. The person who “influenced” me, said that the “influence” couldn’t start again. So I only had to continue to sleep. He said that they never should say that word, so now he would be fired. The person at the office said no, this shall go well, he said. I shall talk with them, he said. The person who influenced me, said that I couldn’t stand on my feet before after two hours. This started five minutes past eight, he said, so it must at least go two hours after that. The person at the office talked about wars, and that they should manage to make wars. It was some talk about wars. I understood that they were doing something, which others didn’t know about. The person at the office, said; that when he was in that room, then he understood it all so correctly. The person at the office said that they had to be attentive about what happened to me. If something went wrong, they had to kill us all, he said. That had to be an accident, he said. We shall take them all, he said. We must find out what happens, he said. It was some talk like this. The person at the office said that I wasn’t anything. He can’t manage to do anything, he said. He said that in the end, I had become so horrible, and that then they could be safe. This is only some fragments. I don’t remember the order. But it wasn’t so much talk. In the end, I thought that I had to sleep. Maybe they had said something about that they had to find out how I was, I don’t remember that. After that, I don’t remember more about this. At once afterwards, and in the years after that, I haven’t remembered anything about this, before I started to remember it earlier this year. ▪ I wake up and become conscious because I heard a bang. I sat up, and asked the person at the office if it was a bang. He answered that I maybe had heard a door be shut. He said to me that I had been a little unwell, and that he had let me sleep. He said that I now could go back to my work and continue my work. I got up. When I walked back to my work, I noticed that my legs were weak. I remember that I saw a gray person who walked away the opposite way in the corridor. Now I remember him as the person who came for me in the beginning. Back on my work, I looked at my watch on my wrist, I think it was 10:07 AM. I became upset because I had lost two hours of my work. And I decided to work all the meal breaks at 9 AM, to take the time back. I didn’t remember anything about what had happened. And I didn’t think anything about that something strange had happened. I only was taken up with my work. I remember that I said to my wife when I came home, that something strange had happened on my job that day. I had fallen asleep, and that was inside a person’s office. That must be that I was very tired, I said. That can’t happen again, I said. I remember it as if I have said this, but it is difficult for me to be absolutely sure about that. Later on the job, the contact in the electrical company said to me, that the bank was satisfied with the work I had done in the room. It can also be, that it was some talk about that people in the electrical company, had been anxious because I didn’t come to the meal break at the café at 9 AM. Maybe they had phoned to the bank, and heard that everything was well with me. I have some memory about some such talk. I said that I had the meal breaks at the changing room. I only remembered that a person had asked me to look at something, but that it wasn’t anything. Now it is no doubt about that this happened Monday, December 29, 1975. The whole picture of what happened, has clearly come back in my mind. Earlier it was impossible for me to remember this. Now it is easy for me to remember it. It is as if a covering has been removed, so it has been possible for me to remember it again. That shows that this has been “influenced” to disappear from my conscious memory. This text is written right out of my head, and directly down in the text file. This is in its own way, correct, according to what is possible for me to do today. This also makes the text to a first draft. December 29, 2017, David H. Hegg |