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Monday, May 11, 2015

After these three tobacco pipes from the seventies, have come correctly back in my conscious memory; it is like, I never had forgotten them. It is like, I always have remembered them crisp and clean.

This is also the same; regarding other things it has been difficult for me to remember again. When I remember these things again, it is like I never had forgotten them.

This is something striking. It is so clear for me, that I have thought about it several times earlier regarding other such things, and I also think about it this time.

This gets me to think, that these memories have been inside me all the time. But my conscious memory has both been without any contact with them, and also had wrong and changed memories regarding them.

This is so remarkable; that it gets me to think, that my real person all the time has been hidden inside me. What has happened; must therefore be, that these manipulations got me to be a manipulated version of myself. Now I think about, that these manipulations do not make another person; these manipulations make a manipulated person.

When I now feel, that I have been the person I was before; I feel that I have been that person the whole time. It is like, that the problem has been to understand, what happens to myself.

This influenced state; is like, that the real myself, only has been hidden inside myself. Therefore this influenced state, has been like being conned by these influences, witch have been put into my subconsciousness.

After I remembered correctly about the third pipe I had in 1975; I now feel strongly that I have reached the end of this development backwards. That was the last. I think that this feeling, is because that pipe had a kind of key role. Now I think, that this was the last thing I had to find out about, to come free from their influence over me.

I also think about, that regarding that pipe, these criminals have influenced me regarding the shop where I bought that pipe and tobacco for it. This is only a little bit of it, but maybe it is something among the first things.

David H. Hegg