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Thursday, October 29, 2015

After messages October 27 and 28, I now also have some more thoughts. This is something, which is in a way, which I not should have found out anything about or understood something of.

When I work with delivering newspapers, I use a quite big trolley. It is made of plastic on an iron framework, with a rain cover on the top. It has two wheels, support legs, and a handle to draw or push it. I often let the trolley stand still, and count out newspapers for a round with for example five buildings. There are different newspapers and magazines, and different of them each day. The electronic list, which shows what I shall deliver, and where; makes it possible for me to arrange such smaller rounds in ways, which sum up all the different papers on each round. The codes and the numbers for all the newspapers, are shown in the same way as the single newspapers, as on the picture below. When I count up these papers, it has happened that I have taken wrong papers. When I out on the round, find out that, I always have said to myself, that I saw it was the correct papers. I now think this has been, that the moment, when I take the wrong papers, I have a wrong picture of the newspaper code in my mind. Immediately afterwards, that is taken away, and I think I have done it correct. This has happened again and again and again. I have seen something else, than what is in the list. It is typical only one of the different newspapers, which has been wrong.

Another situation, is that I find out that I have wrong newspapers left in the end on a round. Then I know, that I have done something wrong. But I am sure about that I have done everything correct. When I find the place where I have delivered a wrong newspaper, I always have said to myself, I am sure about that I delivered the right newspaper here. This has happened again and again and again. I have not discovered that I delivered a wrong newspaper; I have all the time thought that I delivered the correct newspaper to that subscriber.

How the situation October 27, absorbs me, is something I think works in a way, which should have removed it all from my conscious state. This did it impossible for me earlier, to find out anything about this. This method makes it impossible for the conscious state for a short moment, to deal with what happens, and afterwards it all is gone.

This is how these two situations often have turned out. For many years, I have understood that this is because of these influences, but it has been impossible to find out anything about it.

This has not happened often, there can have been weeks and months without any such situations. If it happens, it typical happens only one time at one day. But I have thought that this is something which should have become more and more, but instead it has become less and less. Now and then, a few times in a year, it can have happened many times at one day, four and five times. I have always calmed down regarding such things, and become more relaxed and exactly in details, instead of being flustered. I have never been flustered because of such things.

It has even now and then, been possible for me to think through the whole route, with hundreds of newspapers, after I am finished; and then also finding where I have done something wrong, because I have wrong newspapers left when I am finished. But that has been other types of mistakes, like walked past a place because I did something else than usual etc.

I think there are thousands of different other possibilities with this method, than what I have written a little about here.

David H. Hegg