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96. A few sentences more

After I yesterday wrote about how the person in the office in the bank, started to talk with me after Christmas Eve in 1975; I have a few more sentences, which I want to write down. The person asked me if it was us, who lived in the end of the building association where I grew up. All who lived there, had built all the row houses by themselves, together with one another. The person in the office said there were some there, who didn’t like us. I didn’t understand about that.

Today I have a little more about that, which I think is important. The person found out that I didn’t know, that some people around us didn’t like us. I said that our neighbors were kind, I didn’t know anything else than that. The person said; that then he had found out what he need to know about this.

That last sentence above, was something I wrote down on a paper, when I was doing something else. Just when I wrote it down, it changed to that, then he had found out what he need to know about me. When that happened, I thought that this is something, which has been changed by such influences. It can also be two different parts of the conversation, which I can’t keep separate.

I thought that these criminals have found out about something they do, which we don’t know what is. Can this person take control over me immediately, only by talking to me? Can he say, that now he shall take a grip round me, and start to control me immediately? I don’t know how this has been done. These criminals have found out about something we don’t know what is. That is what I can say about it.

When the person talked about that some people around us didn’t like us, he must have had some information about that. Or, it is something such influences have influenced to, that I shall comprehend in that way. This must have been about something, which it had been talked much about; in the neighborhood around us, and at the school, where I started at the same time, and other places. But my parents and I didn’t know anything about it. All of it has been wrong. It was because my mother’s mother talked bad to me about the Communists, but she didn’t know anything about what she talked about, and has only talked some confused babble. If my parents had known about that, they had been shocked, and talked to me about that all she said only were wrong. But they didn’t know about it. When I come home again from my mother’s mother that summer, I immediately tried to talk about this to one of my friends in the neighborhood; we had been tight‐knitted during the building period. That resulted in that our neighbors didn’t like us anymore. My parents never understood what it was. And I even still don’t know what I have said.

My mother’s mother talked very bad against the Communists, but she has never understood anything about that. She had strong opinions and feelings based on ignorance. My parents never talked like that. My mother’s mother talked bad against them who had helped us to build our own home; together with them we had got very a good place to live. In the sixties, there were quite many Communists in Norway, they were present in the public debate. Some of the most beloved by the people, in Norway, have been Communists. When there were more Communists here, the society was a more pleasant and human community, even if the political debate was harder. At that time things were getting hot at the political meetings. Today the society more has been a cold and technical business system. Political meetings today have been soulless, rhetoric and boring “one‐way driving”. My parents taught me to understand different people, the Communists the same way as others.

I didn’t grew up in a political active family, with my parents. But when we had visitors, the conversation typical discussed all aspects of the political situation in an eager and enthusiastic way. People with all different political opinions, were just as much welcome all of them in our home, no one of them were spoken ill about when they had went out again and didn’t be there. My parents had a balanced understanding about politics, and didn’t look one‐sided at political issues. They looked at the whole social situation with all its different political aspects. I was taught to find out and understand by myself, before I formed an opinion, and to not believe in what others only said.

My mother’s mother took me away from my parents when I was seven years old in 1962, and manipulated me and connected me to herself instead. She ruined my contact with my parents, in a way my parents and I didn’t understand. I think my mother’s mother was a victim for this, and not a cause, to say it shortly. I also think the criminals have influenced and ruined what the Communists originally were. I think they originally developed to start the social democracy, and at that time the new social democratic movement. This was also something that had to do with how all were in a different way, not only the Communists, but all the others also. The Communists were a part of this social situation, they were just as much a result of the social situation, as a cause for it, like all the others around them also were. I think the criminals have influenced and ruined everything, about what our political development was about, in a way we haven’t understood.

Have these criminals wanted to get me to join them? If that is correct, then they must have known very little about me; only that our neighbors didn’t like us, nothing more. One of the memory images that should be wrong memory for me, was about that some other such bandits wanted to get me to join them. Could that be because that was what they originally wanted to do? I don’t know. For me, such things only can be different hypotheses. This can be true. But it can also be that all of it only is cooked up, and only is wrong influences against me.

I think that how everything has been wrong, is something we must find out about. Otherwise I think that will ruin the whole world.

January 18, 2017, David H. Hegg