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158. The first step

Now I have thought about another memory, which I think must be a memory hallucination by the criminals. It doesn’t seem likely that this has happened. It also have the dominating way of being, which overshadows all other things. Therefore this also indicates, that this is a memory hallucination. I think it is, that the criminals have influenced to a knife in my mind, in this way, to create a gradually development with other memory hallucinations of knifes and weapons, to influence me to be fond of weapons. Therefore, I think this is the first step in a series of other steps, to influence me to be taken up with weapons. This is as if I have been influenced to be fond of knifes.

The memory hallucination is: “I was about three or four years old. I was in the neighborhood close by, outside a neighbor beside us, where it was easy and usual for me to walk about. I had hurt myself in my head, and got a lump in the forehead. A teenage girl I knew, lived in the house; she was older than me, so maybe she was a little older than a teenager. When she saw the lump in my forehead, she became taken up with that it was something she had to do. And she said that it was correct to put a cold knife on the lump. She ran into their house and fetched a large kitchen knife, and came out again and laid the flat side of the cold knife on the lump, and held it there for a while. After some time, she said that now it had become better again. My mother came, and the girl said what she had done. And I said that now it had been better again.”

In connection to this, it is as if the person who influenced me in 1975, has said: “And then you shall take the knife in your hand, and feel that you are strong with a weapon in your hand. Then you have been a grown‐up man. You have been cold and callous. You shall shoot and kill, instead of reading and writing. You have been a dangerous person.”This isn’t something I remember from the room, where the influences were done in 1975. It is as if someone has said this to me. It is something, which became linked to the memory hallucination about the cold knife, after I first had thought much about that memory hallucination for some days now. Earlier I have “remembered” this memory hallucination for many years.

When I in 1964 or later, talked to the woman who owned the cottage, she said that the people around there liked me, when she wanted to give me the house. Therefore it is likely that I had contact with this neighbor, and knew her well. Therefore this is something the criminals have wanted to use in this way, to link this memory hallucination to someone I was fond of early in my childhood.

I think about that the criminals want, that we shall use weapons and kill one another; instead of using pens etc. and write.

They want us to make wars against one another with weapons, and kill one another so we become death; instead of talking with one another, and get one another to understand and be more clever.

The criminals want to influence to conflicts of all kinds; to ruin how people can develop their peaceful organized ways of political possibilities. To develop such ways of organized political possibilities, need time and a gradual gaining of knowledge, with learning by doing. I think it is this long‐lasting development of learning, about how to find ways to do this, which is what, the criminals want to ruin. This is something the people need many years to develop in peaceful ways. It has to do with all aspects of being humans and the whole social life. It seems as if, that the criminals want to ruin this peaceful constructive long‐lasting activity of peaceful active populations in the world. It seems as if the criminals want to own the world.

How all become more clever and understand more; that are something, which forms the basis of good societies.

May 30, 2017, David H. Hegg