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180. Slow changes
Regarding these influences, it is as if my mind works slowly, with a step by step development. This is both when the influences have developed, and afterwards when I have found out about them. Sometimes sudden and surprising things also can happen, because of the influences, typical when something unexpected happens. But the slow and gradual development is typical. It was regarding finding out about the influences, that I now first thought about this. Afterwards, I thought about that this also is something typical with how the influences develop.
It is like my mind changes slowly. When my mind changes, then that is, that I change as a person. This is that I change slowly regarding these influences; both when they work, and when I find out about them. Because of this, I slowly change when I find out about this crime by the criminals.
I think about that the influences by the criminals; that, aren’t the same as natural influences. Natural influences also work slowly, like it is at school, when people learn more and more, year after year. But natural surprising happenings can also influence a person in a sudden way. A comparison with learning at schools and universities, over years and decades, is relevant; these influences work slowly more and more through a person’s whole life. This is one of different aspects regarding these influences. The influences influence people in all thinkable ways.
What I cared about to achieve, before these influences were done against me in 1975, was something I today should have forgotten. Because I now think about this, I start to care about what it was I thought about, at that time. The influences by the criminals have changed everything regarding how my life now has been, in proportion to how it was before. In 1975, my wife and I had started to think about our future life together with our daughter. That was what we cared about. For me, it is important to find out about this, when I understand, that it is in this way. Regarding me, there is no question that such influences have changed everything for me. These influences have changed my thoughts and understandings about different things in wrong ways, and that hadn’t happened if I had understood what it was. This has also been coordinated with how other people have been influenced around me. So, I am sure about that this is something important to find out about.
It is important to me to find out about and understand what these influences are in my life, and to find out what they have meant. Everything I had thought about doing, has been ruined. Then it is to find out about, how this has happened, which I now have to do.
This is similar to something I said to my daughter’s mother in the telephone in the summer 1986: “It is necessary to find out what this is. We cannot let such things happen without finding out what it is. I have to find out what this is.” After that, the doctor gave me some pills, which gave me hallucinations and ruined what little I had left of my memory. I started to hear things which didn’t happen. I throw the pills in the garbage can, and didn’t go back to the doctor. I had contacted the doctor because of muscle pain, and nothing else. I thought about that the only thing I remembered, was the way back to where I lived. This worsened during some years after that. What different individuals had done against me that year, had ruined my mind totally. Every single word they had said was an insane lie, and all they did were unlawful to do. They thought it was good fun. No one of these people said anything to me about what they talked about. I didn’t know what it was. Nothing of it, had anything to do with me. All of it vas nonsense.
This was incomprehensible for me. My family didn’t know anything about what had happened. Afterwards I didn’t remember what had happened, and because of that, I had been alone and helpless. I couldn’t tell others about what had happened, because I didn’t know what it was. My daughter and her mother also become mentally ruined, and we became dispersed from one another. That was also something unlawful to do. I hadn’t done anything wrong. In the end, they all knew that. It was only I who then didn’t know that anymore. They all knew that also. They, who had done unlawful things, didn’t want to put things in order again. That was a part of the criminals’ plan. I should be a victim of a crime that shouldn’t be cleared up. That crime is actually done by the criminals, who have influenced other people to do these things.
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After writing this, I start to think about a parallel between what I wrote about above, and what happens in the whole world. In the societies and in parts of the societies, this can be in similar ways. Things change slowly over years and decades.
But what has changed? I think that is something the peoples in the world had started to think about how to do, around 1900, but not something people had done. I think the criminals can have changed how people started to try to do what they thought about to do. I think the new political ideas still were in the beginning of their development, when the criminals started to influence it all. It can be that what people cared about to achieve at that time, around 1900, was something we today don’t know what was, and don’t think about any more. People had started to think about the future. That was what people cared about. I don’t have exact information about this, therefor it is necessary to find out more about how this has been.
If this is correct, which it probably is in one way or another; then it is the criminals, that have influenced to the development in these years. The criminals have influenced people to do all kinds of different things in wrong ways. I think they have pushed things to different extremes, by their influences, to achieve opposites and disagreement between people. The criminals can also have influenced to different terrible wars and happenings. The idea of that the people should stand united, can be something the criminals have wanted to destroy.
To describe how I think these influences can have been used to cause changes of the political process, I think about this illustrative description. This is an imaginative paraphrase of the real situation: “We understand the influences of the others, but we don’t yield an inch from our own influences. We still firmly believe in what we are influenced to believe; and we don’t let how others are influenced to believe, affect us anything at all. They can talk as much as they want about how they are influenced to think, but we will not change how we are influenced to think!”
Everything people before us had thought about doing, has been ruined. Then it is to find out about, how this has happened, which we now have to do.
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After I had written the text above, I started to get some thoughts in my mind, about something the person who influenced me in December 1975, could have said when he influenced me. I had been thinking about that it seems as, that some of the influences are scheduled to happen at particular times, and that they are exactly coordinated with influences in other individuals.
“Now there is one who has something to say to you. This person isn’t me, but one who very carefully have made plans for what now will be said. You shall now listen carefully, and repeat what I now say. I will never say anything about this to others, because this is your and mine secret world.”
This appeared in my mind when I thought about, that these influences have been done very accurately. There was nothing about what were before, and after these sentences, when I got this in my mind. It is impossible for me to understand if this is correct, partly correct, or wrong. Typical different such thoughts have appeared in my mind, and I typical think that these influences can cause all kinds of such different thoughts. What I have written here, was a little special. But it only appeared in my mind, I don’t know why.
I think the person who influenced me, has done different things, in different ways. If he has done something like this, then that is one of different other ways of influencing me.
October 8, 2017, David H. Hegg
181. Think and understand
Generally speaking, the methodical situation today, is that we all are influenced to have those positions, which we have in the societies and in the world. This is a theoretical understanding of the systematic situation, which the criminals have created by the influences. That is a theorization of this, which is a paraphrase of the reality, to be able to see this in a schematic way. The theoretical picture this shows; is that we all have been influenced. It isn’t only the others, or only us; it is all of us. This is that the criminals have led all of us astray in a systematic way, in proportion to one another, by different influences. This have created a falsification of the reality.
The falsification, is what this has been, because of the criminals; instead of what this should have been, because of us. We all are influenced in different ways, so that we in that way, haven’t done what we otherwise had done in different ways. This methodical situation, is what we all today have in common, in the same way.
I think this is because there are some attitudes of overriding importance, which we all have in common. The criminals have wanted to ruin these common attitudes for us all. These common attitudes are the most important for all of us, and they are something we all agree about. It is important that we find out what these common attitudes are.
We are manipulated to base our development on a twisted and falsified foundation. I think this untrue foundation causes different problems. We are influenced to do things; which we don’t understand, that we hadn’t wanted to do. This is something it is necessary to find out about and understand. The criminals think and understand; to do what they are doing. We must think and understand; to find out about them and what they are doing.
October 11, 2017, David H. Hegg
182. One and the other
The truth about a lie; that, is what the lie really is. The criminals know the truths about their lies. That is something, which gives them the power over the lies. Others don’t have that power, because they don’t know what the truths about the lies are.
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I think that one aspect regarding how the criminals think; is that they trick them, who don’t want to join them; the same way, as they do against them they don’t want to deal with. There are some people who the criminals want, that shall join them, who don’t want to join them. There are also some people who the criminals don’t want to deal with.
I think the criminals are evil against them, who don’t want to join them, the same way as against them, who they don’t want to deal with. The criminals do the same against one and the other; they influence them and use them the same malicious way.
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In proportion to the text above, I start to think about how the development before the criminals started with their crime, was characterized by how the people had started to understand about the societies. It was this true understanding about the untruth, which gave the people power; because understanding about the truth, gave power against the untruth. The truths got power against the untruths. Attention about what was true, had been something important at that time.
I think about the time around 1900, as the time when this crime can have started. I write 1900, because I want to bring this point in time far enough back in the past. I don’t know exactly when this crime started.
When I have written this, I now also think about that the time from 1850 to 1950 can be an important space of time, regarding how this crime has started to develop.
These indications of times are only approximately, because I want to show that I think, that this started before the First World War. The correct points in time regarding this, can be different from what I think. This is only something I think, it isn’t something I know.
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It is possible to say; that the criminals have taken over the power of the truth, by hiding the truth for all the others. This is only one of different aspects regarding the crime by the criminals.
October 13, 2017, David H. Hegg
183. Natural development
When thinking about what it can be that have changed, when the criminals started to influence people, I think it was the people’s natural way of being. There are different things to focus on regarding how the criminals have changed things. How people’s natural way of being changed, is one of these different things. I think about that this natural way of being, was a natural way of being for all different peoples and individuals. This natural way of being was something with all people in different parts of the societies, and in different places in the world. It was this natural way of being, that originally formed the basis for the development initially, before the criminals started with their influences. I think this natural way of being was a natural human quality, which influenced people in natural ways, regarding all different aspects by the development at that time.
This is that the criminals have ruined the natural human basis for the development, and changed how the humans have started to behave. The criminals have ruined and changed our natural human development.
I think the natural way of being was continuous and stable towards the development with new ideas and changes. I think that the people from the beginning behaved in a different way, regarding all the aspects by the modern development at that time. I also think the development at that time was something natural, which happened in a natural way. It was humankind that developed.
After the criminals started with their influences, they influenced people in different unnatural ways. It is only the criminals that have caused these unnatural behaviors. In this way, the criminals have ruined and changed the natural development of humankind. This development was originally something natural. It was the development of humankind.
This is only one of different aspects regarding what the criminals are doing. Today, I have thought about that this aspect is something important to find out about and understand. The criminals have ruined and changed how we humans natural develop. The criminals have ruined and changed our natural behavior. The criminals have ruined and changed the natural development.
I think the humans to a predominant extent are good and positive. I think it is when these good and positive qualities have been tricked, and when things start to go wrong; that humans start to do wrong. Therefore, it is important for us humans to find out what is true. I think it is natural, that we humans learn from our mistakes, and that we regret what we have done wrong.
October 20, 2017, David H. Hegg
184. Some random thoughts
For me, it has been a long‐lasting situation to deal with these influences. From 1975, it is soon 42 years. From 1986, it is soon 32 years. From 2013, it is soon five years. It is also relevant to take 1962 as the starting point, and that is now more than 55 years ago. First, the influences influenced me and controlled me more and more. Finally, I have found out more and more about it; and the influences have more and more lost their control over me.
It helps more and more, to understand more and more about this. Before 2013, I was led astray by the influences. What corrected me in a positive way, was that I all the time understood that the influences tricked me in wrong ways. From 2013, when I started to find out something correct, it didn’t take that long anymore; and I found out about it during four years. These four, and soon five years now today; are also that this happens slowly. But all the time from 2013, it all has become better and better for me.
After my conscious mind got correct facts to understand from, then my conscious mind developed more and more correct because of that. This became that my conscious mind got more and more control in me, by conscious understanding because of correct facts.
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When thinking about how my own life has changed totally from what it originally was; I also think about that something similar has happened with the societies and the whole world. Today I have a few thoughts regarding this. But these few thoughts are only some few fragments, which don’t explain it all. I only look at a few random pieces.
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The first I think about just now, is how a person’s mental strength can be turned against the person, because of how these influences can work. This can also be something similar regarding the whole society. This is one of different systematic methods, which I think the criminals are thinking about, that they are doing.
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I have also thought about how the criminals influence to that one thing shall be correct, and another thing shall be wrong. Nothing else shall exists in our thoughts. But what is correct, is that many things can be correct, and many other things can be wrong. Many things can exist in our thoughts in a compound way, in proportion to one another.
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Polarization of ways of thinking is another thing. An example is; how naturopathy is influenced to be in contrast to academic medicine. Naturopathy typically thinks about how to prevent illnesses. Academic medicine typically thinks about how to treat illnesses. These two ways of thinking have been set up against each other, and both of them have become one‐sided in wrong ways. Such contrasts can be seen regarding cultures, art forms, lifestyles, politics, and regarding many other things.
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What we really are, and what every single of us really is, is important for us. It is important for every single of us, regarding what the criminals have done and are doing. By understanding about what the criminals are doing, we can start to find out about what we really are; we aren’t what these criminals have influenced us to be.
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Originally, before the criminals started with their influences, it could be difficult for people to understand, that what they were taught to think was something wrong. It is something similar regarding understanding about these influences. It can be difficult for people to understand, that what they are influenced to think is something wrong. When we have understood about what is correct, then we understand, that it is something good to understand correct instead of wrong.
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The tendency today, to focus on that individuals are the problems; are also something I think the criminals have influenced it to be. The criminals want to ruin how we can find out and understand, that it is how the societies work, that often causes problems for the individuals in ways the individuals are victims of. The problem; is often how the societies work, and not the individuals.
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Here I have mentioned some fast and random thoughts I had just today. These thoughts are only some fragments, which point out a little about how I think the criminals maybe are thinking. There are much more to find out about regarding how these influences work.
When the criminals have influenced us to wrong thinking, then we do things in wrong ways because of that. When we find out about what is correct, then we can start to do things in correct ways because of that. It is important for us to find out correct about things.
October 27, 2017, David H. Hegg
185. It Ain’t Easy
After I from March 2013 started to understand correct, about what had happened with me because of these influences, things slowly developed in me. I understood that I didn’t remember anything about my original life, and I thought that I had to find out about that again, to be able to find out about what had happened with me. That was correct; as I more and more remembered my original life, I also more and more found out about what had happened with me.
When I was a teenager early in the seventies, I was interested in music and LP records. I also had an open‐reel recorder, which still was something common at that time, and I recorded records, which my friends had bought. I was interested in different types of music. One of my friends had an older brother who had some records, and he brought his brother’s records to me, so I could record them. This happened overs some time, with one record every time. His brother had fine and interesting records, which I hadn’t heard before, and I recorded some of these records.
In March 2013, I understood that I had forgotten the most of both my original records and my original recordings. I thought that I had to remember these records again, and I started to find out about them to remember these records again.
Yesterday, Saturday, October 28, 2017; soon five years after March 2013, I remembered one more of these records I had recorded from my friend’s older brother. I looked after different things on YouTube, when I saw the name of a rock band, which I immediately recognized. The band was “Three Dog Night”, which is an American rock band from Los Angeles. This band was formed in 1967, and took the name “Three Dog Night” in 1968.
When I looked at their discography, I quickly recognized the album I recorded, “It Ain’t Easy” which is their fourth album, from 1970. The first I recognized, was the title of the song “Out in the Country”; and when I listened to the songs from this album, I recognized the songs I had recorded. That was six of the songs from the album; the five songs on side one, and the second song on side two. This was typical because I didn’t have more space left on the recording tape, I could record more than four LP records on the recording tapes I usually used at that time.
Three Dog Night ‐ It Ain’t Easy
Side one
1. Woman
2. Cowboy
3. It Ain’t Easy
4. Out in the Country
5. Good Feeling
Side two
1. Rock and Roll Widow
2. Mama Told Me (Not to Come)
3. Your Song
4. Good Time Living
Before yesterday, this album had disappeared from my mind. But now, it is like I recorded it yesterday. I remember the album very clearly, and I remember that I recorded it. When I first heard this album, it was new and interesting music for me, which I thought, that sounded fine.
I think about how this had completely disappeared from my mind; and how it now very strongly immediately is back in my mind again. Now it is as I always have remembered it. It is as if I never have forgotten it. But it had completely disappeared from my mind.
October 29, 2017, David H. Hegg
186. The real myself
After the last text “185. It Ain’t Easy” October 29, I have got an experience of that I now have contact with the person I originally was, early in the seventies. Now it is as if I all the time have been that person; but I haven’t had contact with it. Today, I feel like that this is the person, whom I always have been; all the time, in all these years. I feel like that I never have been anyone else.
After the influences against me in 1975, it is as if I haven’t known about the person I really am anymore, even I all the time have been that person. I think that this is how the influences have tricked the person I really am. The influences have influenced me in a way, which has caused this to be like that. The person who influenced me, got that kind of control over me.
What is this? Just now, I haven’t thought more about that, than what I have written above. These are new thoughts for me today. First, I didn’t want to write about this, because it was unfinished thoughts. However, after thinking about it for some hours, I thought that I could write a little about these unfinished thoughts.
It is something with this. It is about the person I really am. And it is about what the influences did to me. The influences didn’t take away the person I really am. I think the influences influenced me to experience, that I was the influences. And the influences influenced me to experience that the person, whom I really am, had disappeared for me in my mind. My mind had become filled up with the influences, which had started to control how my mind functioned. The influences was something which hid itself, in a way like it was behind my mind, so I couldn’t understand that it was something there.
It is as if the influences had got a kind of control over how my mind functioned. Because of this; it is as if the influences could hide the person I really am. It is as if the influences controlled what I should remember, think, feel, experience and do, etc. It is as if the influences had taken over the role in me, which the real myself earlier had had.
I think this has worked in a way, which was, that my real myself shouldn’t be able to begin to understand about what had happened to me. That could in a way be, like that my real myself had fall asleep, and because of that had become inactive. That I have found out about this; is as if my real myself has become active and taken up with what this is. It is as if it is, that the real myself has found out about what has happened to me. The more I understand about this, the more the real myself get control over myself again.
When thinking about these things, I ask myself; if myself is influenced to change, or if myself is influenced to be inactive? The first answer in my mind is; that it is both. But that answer is only that I have started to think about what this can be. How the development of the influences have been gradually, step by step, and have wormed their ways; show that this has been a phased influence. Just now, it seems for me as if myself both has been inactive and changed. These are introductory thoughts, which haven’t reached a final conclusion.
The influences had created their own role in me; there is no question about that. It seems for me as if these influences have been established in a neutral place in me, and that they have controlled me from there, that they have controlled all parts of my mind. This can in a way be, that the influences had done the real myself inactive, and activated another, changed and artificial myself.
The influences themselves, had established their own role. Now it seems for me, as if this is, that the real myself had started to find out about these influences’ role, and that I because of that, have been able to find out about it, and done the influences inactive. So now, the influences are inactive in me, and the real myself has been active. Just now, that seems correct for me.
This text is some spontaneous thoughts about this, which I just now have been thinking. The text is unfinished thoughts.
November 3, 2017, David H. Hegg
187. One’s own will
Just now, when I should start to write this text, something special happened. I sat relaxed in front of the computer; and got an experience of that I should shut my eyes, relax, be drowsy, forget all of what I thought about, disappear and be nothing. When this happened, I thought that it was as if the person, who influenced me in 1975, tried to influence me just now. After that, I thought that now it is important, that I keep awake, and write what I have been thinking about. I thought that this can be, that I am on to something just now.
First, I have concentrate on the day when these influences were done against me, Monday, December 29, 1975. I have thought about what had changed from before, to after, when the influences were done against me that morning. That will be; what happened from 8:05 AM to 10:05 AM that morning? Well; first I drank something, and became dizzy, and I couldn’t stand on my feet. Then I became drowsy, a person poured more to drink into me, and he started to influence me 8:05 AM. Afterwards I bounded up 10:05 AM, because of a bang from a door, which had ben slammed. Giddy‐brained and a little wobbly on my feet, I hurried back to my work, to continue working, as I had started with doing 7:45 AM. My legs were weak, when I walked back to my work as an electrician apprentice. I worked alone in an empty room. I didn’t remember anything about what had happened during these two hours. What had changed from 8:05 AM to 10:05 AM? That is something important.
When I came, to start with my work 7:45 AM, everything was normal with me. When I continued to work after 10:05 AM, I was influenced. I did the same work, but I wasn’t in the same state as before. What had changed in me? After the influences, I did the same as before, but I had come into an influenced state. What I did, hadn’t changed. It was how I was, that had changed. Who I was, was the same. It was how I was, that had changed. I was the same as before, but I was in another way than before. Where I worked, had become an influenced situation for me.
When I went from home that morning, everything was normal. When I came home that day, the situation at home had been an influenced situation. Everything looked apparently as before, but everything had become an influenced situation.
On my job, things first continued as normal. But after some time, things slowly and gradually changed after this. I got problems because of the influences, which I didn’t understand what were. That became more and more confusing, and worse and worse, until I quit, circa two years and ten months later.
I think I was the same person, but I had come into an influenced state. That was what had happened.
At home, together with my wife and our child, things also first continued as normal. But after some time, things slowly and gradually changed after this.
I think I was the same person, but I had come into an influenced state. That was what had happened.
The different situations in my life, had become influenced situations for me. Because I didn’t understand about this, these influences gradually developed. If I had understood everything about this, I think it had been possible to hinder this influenced state to develop. To understand about the influenced state itself, had also worked against the influenced state.
This influenced stat, had changed everything with me, in ways I hadn’t understood. I think that if I had understood everything about the influences, then I had been able to counteract all the influences. These influences typical start with a little, and develop into more and more.
The influenced state has to do with everything. Therefore everything changes, when an influenced person don’t understand, what has happened with oneself. The person is the same person. But what, and how, the person remembers, and don’t remembers, feels, thinks and understands, etc.; have started to be caused by the influences.
The influences is the will of the other person, who has influenced the influenced person, and therefore not the influenced person’s will. An influenced person has another person’s will working inside of oneself, without knowing about it oneself. The other person, who has influenced the person, can ruin for the influenced person. Therefore, the will of the other person who influences a person, can be against the influenced person’s will, and influence the person to different things the person never had wanted to do anything of, by oneself.
Another person who influences a person, can get more and more of one’s own will over the influenced person, by influencing a person.
How the influences change a person’s will, is by changing how the person experiences everything. Memories are changed, how things are understood are changed, and the feelings are changed, etc. It is the person’s inner world, which has been changed, and because of that, the person’s will also changes. The person’s experiences of oneself, other individuals, and the world around oneself, has changed. The person can experience oneself, and different things, in other ways than before. Everything can be experienced in a different way than before, also one’s inner life. Different kinds of hallucinations can also be parts of this; that can be feelings, memories, ideas, people who don’t exist meddling in one’s life, and things oneself start to believe that have happened, which haven’t happened, etc. Things oneself earlier knew about, can have disappeared from one’s mind and memory.
It is the person’s experience of everything, understanding of everything, and the person’s will regarding everything; which have changed. The person is still the same person, but the influences change everything in the influenced person.
If it had been possible to make a picture of a person’s inner mind, then that picture could have changed to something complete different, than it was before. But the person continues to be the same person all the time.
The influences can also get the influenced person to do things as some kinds of impulses. The influences can also get the influenced person to feel, think, remember, and not remember, say and do things; without understanding anything about that oneself is influenced.
When an influenced person understands what has happened to oneself, then the person’s own will can start to counteract the will of the other person, who has influenced oneself. This will be; that the person’s own will starts to develop against the influences, and against the will of the other person, who has influenced oneself.
The influences have another person’s will, than one’s own will. When the influences develop in oneself, that is another person’s will, which develops in oneself. By understanding about how this is, it is possible to counteract it.
It is my experience, that it is possible to counteract all sides of the influences, which oneself understands about. The influences have their driving forces. But one’s own will also have its driving force, and that driving force can develop to be stronger and stronger against the influences, by understanding more and more about them. This also can start with a little, and become more and more.
How the criminals influence individuals in combined ways, also increase how the influences work. The criminals also combine influences in different individuals. The criminals can also combine different situations, which they have influenced to develop.
A person is always the same person, but different things can get a person to change. The person can be ruined inside oneself, and because of that, not be able to understand what happens with oneself, etc. When a person don’t understand what happens with oneself, then the influences gradually get total control over the person. That is, that the will of the other person, who has influenced the person, has got total control over the person. Of course an influenced person don’t want this, and by understanding about what has happened with oneself, it is possible to counteract this more and more.
This text has been written straight out from my mind just now. I started with it, and continued until it was finished, and haven’t done more with it than that. It is some thoughts straight out from my mind. In that way, it is introductory thoughts. Only to think these thoughts, can be a little difficult first in the beginning. This text is only a few random fragments, which show a little about this.
November 5, 2017, David H. Hegg
188. A change
In the last text “187. One’s own will” November 5, in the end of the second section, I asked the question “What had changed from 8:05 AM to 10:05 AM?” Now I got a crisp and clean understanding, about a change from 8:05 AM to 10:05 AM, Monday, December 29, 1975.
8:05 AM I thought, that this is something dangerous. I thought, that it is something wrong, which goes on. 10:05 AM I didn’t think, that this is something dangerous. I didn’t think, that it is something wrong, which goes on.
In the minutes before 8:05 AM, circa from 7:52 AM to 8:05 AM; I also thought about, that what happened, is something strange. 10:05 AM I didn’t think about, that what had happened, is something strange or suspicious.
This is a crisp and clean change, from 8:05 AM to 10:05 AM.
November 7, 2017, David H. Hegg
189. A catastrophic change
After the last text, November 7, I have been thinking about what was different, at once after the influences against me in 1975. I couldn’t understand correctly the moment when I became awake and conscious, in the first seconds afterwards, and that continued during the time after that. I didn’t remember correctly about what had happened, when the influence started, neither did I think about that at all. The situation when I woke up, was highly unusual and strange, but I didn’t think about that at all. I only thought about that I had to hurry back to my work and continue working. What worried me, was that I had lost time on my job, that was the only thing I thought about regarding what had happened.
The whole situation was very strange, but I didn’t think about that. I only thought that it was a terrible happening, that I had fallen asleep on my job, and I concentrated on taking back the time by reducing my meal breaks. I calculated how I could take that time back again. That was what I did afterwards, and I quickly forgot what had happened. I quickly forgot that I had been sleeping and that whole situation.
This became the beginning of an influenced state, which continued year after year after that, until today. This became worse as the time went by, and not better. The influences developed, and ever more new influences started again and again over the years. After I understood something correct about this, in 2013, things started to become better.
The influences affect all human qualities. The very first were how I neither remembered correctly nor considered and understood correctly. That is a catastrophic change, which blocks one’s possibilities to function natural and correctly as a human. This started from the first seconds after the influences. The first I didn’t understand correctly, was what just had happened, and the situation around me when I woke up after the influences. The same way of function wrong, continued all the time after these first seconds. After I understood something correct about this, in 2013, things started to become better. When I started to understand correctly, that development started to get energy, and that has strengthened afterwards.
November 12, 2017, David H. Hegg
190. Difficult to discover
In the text “115. Something strange” February 19, 2017; I wrote about how I have had a strange experience of that I don’t sleep anymore, even I have been sleeping. In that text I thought about, that this can be because, I found out about how I have been influenced. I also thought about, that this can be because I shall go to a doctor and get sleeping pills, even I don’t need sleeping pills. Both these two possibilities are something I thought, that could have to do with influences, which have influenced me to experience these two possibilities.
Now I have been thinking about how this experience of not been sleeping, after I have been sleeping; also can be a way of hiding what has happened, just after the influences have been done in 1975. I have thought about that maybe this can be done in a way, that gives an influenced person the experience of has being awake all the time. This will if so be, that after an influenced person has been influenced, the person experiences having been awake all the time. If so, this will hide what has happened, after the influence is finished.
This is only something I thought just now, because I just now experienced this experience of not being sleeping, after I have been sleeping. After I wrote about this February 19, earlier this year, this has now and then happened many times.
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How I woke up because of a bang, as I wrote about in the text “132. A bang” March 24, 2017; can maybe be something they did to wake me up, because I started to sleep, instead of being finished with the influences.
As I wrote about in the text “122. A Devil” March 8, 2017; I can remember that I stopped answering questions from the person, who influenced me in 1975. This is that something went wrong with the influences against me. Maybe it is because that something went wrong, that they had to slam a door, to wake me up. Maybe they usually do something else.
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I now also think about how I was standing upright, when the person in the office gave me something to drink, as I wrote about in the text “95. When it happened” January 17, 2017. When I became dizzy, I was standing on my feet. Because of that, I remember that I became dizzy. And I remember how the person got fast up from the chair, and helped me to lay down on a sofa or something similar.
I also remember from the beginning of the influences, that I couldn’t move my whole body, not my arms, not my head, and nothing else. But I could talk. I remember that I could say yes with a faint and not clear voice, when the person who influenced me, asked if I could drink what he poured into me, when he lifted up my head. He said it would make me well again. I thought that this is dangerous for me. Now I am in danger, this is dangerous for me, I thought.
Maybe another person in my situation usually is sitting in a chair, and because of that, doesn’t experience how one’s legs don’t bear one’s weight. If a person in that situation already is lying, that person also doesn’t experience how one’s legs don’t bear one’s weight.
I think that they can do many different things in the beginning, before they start with the influences.
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I think about that I was called for, by a person who tricked me to come with him, to a place and to people, which I shouldn’t had anything to do with.
My contact in the electrical company I was employed by, had said to me that I should care about my work, and not care about that the administration of the bank was nearby where I worked. Both he, and the other electrician I worked together with, had some days off. Another person in the electrical company, who I could phone, hadn’t been given a security clearance to come into the bank building where I worked. Neither someone else in the electrical company had been cleared. Only the two other people who had some days off, and I, had been cleared. That had to be done beforehand, and couldn’t be done immediately.
When the person came and asked me to come with him, to look at something with the electrical installation, he surprised me. I said that I had to take with me some small tools. He said that it wasn’t necessary, they only wanted that I should look at something. When we reach the place, other people there said that they had put it in order by themselves. I remember them as three people in a corridor, outside a door into an office. This was a strange situation; and I thought about why, and about what, this could be.
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These notes are about that I have been thinking about how the criminals are able to hide, how they have influenced a person. Maybe an influenced person doesn’t have any memory about being influenced, because the criminals can hide the whole situation for the influenced person. This is something difficult to discover.
How I started to find out about this, was because I started to find out about when unexpected things had happened, that was my first tracks. That started in March 2013.
Still today, I don’t know what the person who influenced me, has done. Therefore, the only I can do regarding that, is to understand about what has happened to me. Because I now understand more about how this has been done, it is more possible for me to understand how the person has influenced me. But I don’t remember anything about what he exactly has done to influence me.
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Now this is easy for me to remember. But after this had happened in 1975, I didn’t remember that I had got something to drink, and I didn’t remember that a person had influenced me. Afterwards I fast forgot that I had worked there.
The whole time when I have tried to find out about this, exactly this job at that place in the bank, and exactly these days in 1975, have been totally absent in my mind and memory.
In the text “ 94. December 29, 30, and 31; 1975” January 16, 2017, I started to approach thinking about this situation for the first time.
November 17, 2017, David H. Hegg
191. My last thoughts
Now I remember my last clear thoughts, before the person “influenced” me in 1975. When the person held a pocket watch ahead of my face, and let it oscillate back and forth; I understood what he was doing. I thought that now he want to “influence” me. He mustn’t succeed in doing that, I thought. After these thoughts, I don’t remember any more thoughts. I didn’t trust the person who started to “influence” me. He appeared to be pleased.
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Everything that had happened beforehand; had been unlikely, and was something unexpected and strange. When the person came and asked me to come with him, he behaved unnatural in a situation like that. When we reached the corridor, the three people there also behaved unnatural in a situation like that. Inside the office, the person had drawn the curtains in front of the window. He commented that I remained standing, and said he had placed a chair at the desk. But it was unnatural for me to come in to him, and sit down and talk about one thing and another. So, I answered something which was about, that it was natural for me to remain standing. I thought he wanted to ask me about something, or something similar; that it was one specific thing he wanted to talk about, something regarding that I worked there. I also thought about that I only should be away from my work for a short time. Everything regarding this happening was unnatural.
November 21, 2017, David H. Hegg
192. The glass
Now I have thought about if the glass, which the person, who “influenced” me, poured into me, was the same glass as the person at the office first gave me. I am unsure of if the person at the office hurried up from his chair, and took the glass out of my hand, and set it on the desk, before he helped me to lay down on a sofa, or something similar. Now this is what I think happened. He saved the class first, and helped me to lay down afterwards. It is difficult for me to remember if it was he, or I, who set the glass on the desk. But now, I think it was he.
When the person who “influenced” me, poured the glass into me, he had got it from the person at the office, who gave it to him. If this is correct, then it was the rest of the contents in the same glass, as I first got from the person at the office. Now I remember it, as if it was like that. But it is difficult for me to remember correctly about every detail in this situation.
When the person poured the contents of the glass into me, I thought that this is the same glass, with the same contents, which already has got me to be lying her. The person became pleased, when he got the glass form the person at the office.
November 22, 2017, David H. Hegg