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223. Circa 1965

When I was at the woman who “influenced” me, she told about what had happened in the time ahead. This was in the time in or around 1965; but I can’t remember any year, date or weekday.

During the war she had spied on the Nazis, and handed over information to the resistance movement. She was used to that she was well received, and that the information she came with vas appreciated. She was attached to the Norwegian Communist Party (Norges Kommunistiske Parti), but what she was taken up with, was to work against war. Her whole family and her boyfriend were killed during the Second World War, and after the war she wanted to work against war, to be able to hinder that something painful as war could happened again. She didn’t want to fail her boyfriend who had sacrificed his life during the war, and continued to love him after he was dead.

Briefly this is like this; that she first spied at some. She lay on a roof and looked through a window. She used an angle binoculars (like a periscope), so that she couldn’t be seen. She had been doing this during the war. This was because it was something suspicious with that building. The top floor was hidden, and couldn’t be seen from the ground, and she wanted to find out about what went on in this hidden floor. One time she saw something strange, a man sat there and was sleeping, while another stood beside him and held something in front of his face. In that way she started to think that it was used “influences”, and that the Nazis during the Second World War had been “influenced”.

After that, she started to search for information about how such things are done, and then she became more and more appalled over what she found out. Gradually she had found out about dangerous methods to get power over other people. This was written like textbooks or textbook, I don’t remember for sure if this was one or more books which especially were so dangerous. In the end she had found out how such can be done, on the basis of developed methods to do exactly such.

This had taken a long time. I got the impression that this had been something she reached in the time from 1945 to a few years before 1965, therefore she nearly had used 20 years on this.

In the end she had the names on several people. And she had also found out about how such could be done. Therefore she knew something about who they were, and what they were doing. When she had finished something she had written, which she wanted to hand over to them who took care of the country’s safety, she went there with what she had finished.

When she came there, she got a shock. They asked about the names she had. When she had told them, they said that now they should do their duty, and go and report about this. They didn’t want to look at anything of what she had taken with her, which she nearly had used 20 years to find out about. She was told to get away. There is the door, they said, and never come here again, they said to here. They went and reported to them she had given the names about, without wanting to know anything about what she had found out. They didn’t want to look at what she had taken with here. She recognized some of them she had reported to during the war, when she was there. They behaved as they didn’t know her.

When this happened, she had resigned from the Communist Party because she didn’t want to involve something that had to do with politics, into what she had found out about. She had wanted to talk about this to people from all different political parties. She had only been taken up with finding out about what war had come of, and she hadn’t paid so much attention to what had been going on in the society. She had only wanted to find out about what caused war.

Because she had talked with them in the Communist Party about that there was some trickery with the whole formation of their party, they didn’t want to talk with here anymore either.

After this, everything was ruined, and it was a short time before things started to happen around her. People she had had something to do with changed and disappeared. Things changed at her work, and it became difficult for her there. And then she became ill. She had got cancer. To begin with, the doctor smiled and said that this would go well. Because it was still time left to do something with this. But so this was put off again and again; until she in the end got the message about that it was too late. Then her doctor became sad. He said that he couldn’t understand why it had to take so unnecessarily long time.

Gradually she was been totally alone, and she should soon die. Then she thought about that I one time had said to her, that it isn’t what you are that matters, it is what you do that matters. And when she had heard that it didn’t go well with me; she understood that it was the same people, who had started to ruin for me, as them who had started to ruin for her.

She said that she had learned to do the same as them. And that she could do something which worked in a way, that if they took me, then they couldn’t find out anything, and I could afterwards know who they are, so I then could try to do something with that. She said that I in any case would be “influenced”, either of them, or of her.

I wanted to do this. I would rather be “influences” by her, than by them. Then she said, that what she should do, that will start there, in her home. And it will stop when I remembered this, which happened in her home. When I remembered this again, then I had come through all the “influences”, which the others had done against me, in a way where they thought that everything went as it should, until it hadn’t been anything of what they had wanted to reach in the end. They would think that was because I had fallen asleep when they did it, and then they wouldn’t care about me any longer.

My mother and father have known about this all the time afterwards. They shouldn’t say anything about it, neither to me nor to others. Both my parents are dead now. And this woman died a short time after this. Maybe she had taken an overdose of the painkillers she got, she talked about doing that. She hadn’t taken any of them until that day.

When she heard, that them she came to; only should do their duty and report this to them she came with the names on, she did her duty herself, and ruined all her own sources. The only things there are possible to find there, is the tracks after a little knife which has cut away some pages. What she had found out about, was something very dangerous, And the wrong people couldn’t get to know about it. After I had been there, she should burn up all of it, and throw away the ash, so that no such ash was left in the stove. She should also remove all tracks after me, such as photographs.

The person at the office where I was “influenced” in 1975, was him who she had seen through the window, when she lay on a roof. She said that he would want to get me into his office. Because that is how he is, she said. And he would try to manage to do that, and for that he has many others who get money from him, to do that for him. It was because my parents and I had lived in a little cottage in her garden the five first years of my life. And it was him who already in 1965 had started to ruin for me, she said. And that person talked about that cottage in the garden in the beginning in 1975.

This is a fast and shortened account about this.

December 14, 2018, David H. Hegg