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Now I have changed this message section so the messages are kept instead of being gradually deleted, as I first had planned.
I have also thought about that these criminals have found some hidden possibilities with their hidden means. If you compare a human's face with a clock's face; especially an old clock with a mechanical clockwork, it is possible to understand the same kind of discovery when you look behind the face, into the subconscious or the clockwork. It is possible to think how it can be seen in a way where you are saying; aha, that is the way it are working behind the face. Something you did not know before you saw it.
My own situating is now also marked of how I now have an experience of; that things in my mind are clearly and crisply, instead of muddy and foggy.
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For some weeks I have had a little glimpse of something I understand that can have happened when this influence was done to me. But I can not at all be able to understand if this is correct or not. I think that it is impossible to remember something from that happening. But even so; her is what I have had in my mind for some time:
I am laying on my back, a man sits beside of me, and it is inside an office room. Another man comes in through the door, and he says. 'How does it goes here?' The man beside of me says: 'Here it goes as it shall.' The other man. 'That is good, then we start.' It comes more people there too. And this must be in a part of the building where they have control over what goes on there. I think they maybe can have given me injections with hypodermic syringes, maybe at regular intervals.
I have had countless wrong rememberings of what has been done to me, because I have been influenced to get such memory images in my mind; which are some kind of hallucinations you think that are your memory, which it is possible for them to make. But now I think I am very near to what has been done to me.
Because of this way of doing these things, or maybe it is other ways; regardless of how, I think that these things must be done in some kind of complicated ways. Because of this way of doing these tings, I think that these things are been doing within certain limits.
After this; I start to think that they maybe can gain much, only by influence one person. Can they have gain many things, only by influencing me? This is my last question in this connection. I think that what they influence people to do, with these methods; maybe gets a conquering way of working; both in the influenced person, and among other people who are influenced by the influenced person.
I think that these criminals, among other things, have attacked common widespread understandings. And it is possible to understand that they are very sly. So they do that in a very sly way. I think they change the ways of how people have these common widespread understandings, so they start to disagree about things they in an essential way was united about. But it is important to know that I do not have any information about what they are doing; so I do not know anything about that. I know nothing about what they are doing. But it must be something they not can do in a legal way. Therefore they do it in an illegal way, and they are criminals.
One example for what I think these criminals can have gained, is the terror organization Rote Armee Fraktion in West Germany in the 1970's and 1980's; with among others, the most known Ulrike Marie Meinhof 1934 – 1976, and Andreas Bernd Baader 1943 – 1977; both died separately of suicide. This organization was doomed from the beginning, and did nothing else than work against their own ideals. If this is correct; that was not because of that they were idiots, it was because of how these methods which influence people, conquering both themselves and others among them who get influenced by them. And their activity got a very conquering way of working, but because they were so few, they lost at last. But before that, they got do very much; and the result of that, become the opposite of what they had wanted to gain. If these people had got a clear and correct understanding about this, I think they could have started to understand about what had been done to them. But I think that no one can remember that this has been done to them, (and that is very dangerous). You must know something, to start to understand that something like this can have been done to oneself. I have found out a little more about this organization, in an easy way; and it is after that I have started to think that there can be something suspicious with this, in this connection.
Another example is that I also think that they can have gained to get Anders Behring Breivik born 1979 to do his terror action in Norway July 22, 2011. This terror action was terrible, and he did all of it alone, that can be because they had given him a conquering motivation which also can be the reason for why he started to cry during the court case. The motivation in him brought him to tears; he did not cry for his victims, he cried for his own values.
Of course these examples are not the only things they are doing. And again; I have no information about what they are doing, because they have never said anything about that to me.
Something I have found out about these methods, is that they have influenced me step by step. First, the first step. And after that, I have got a basis for the next step. So, I have got the basis for the third step, etc. They have also got me to believe that things have happened, which not have happened. Among other things, that I have talked to people who I not have talked to; about tings I not have talked about. And after that, they even have got me to make notes about it.
To have these methods to work, they must keep it in secret. That can be why they not are using it more than they do. But this is in any case difficult to discover.
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Now I got a clear understanding about these hallucinated memory images which I earlier have written about. It is like a few words they have said to one 'catch fire'. And a few words can become more that what a whole library can be able to keep. When this 'catch fire', it is the living functions which works like fire. Such wrong memory images have typically come to activity about things which should have happened earlier, some days before, or a longer time before, also ten years and more before.
It is possible to compare with that people can tumble by them selves. But if someone push them, it is more likely that they tumble. And that can be the same with these hallucinated memory images also, it is more likely that it happens when someone does something to get it to happen. Maybe something similar to this nearly can happen by it selves, but it is more likely that it happens when someone do something to get it to happen.
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The last days I have thought about that it is important to find out about how this crime with mind control works. And then I started to think about, that these criminals can influence individuals from the inside of the mind in them. It is possible to think theoretically, that this is the opposite of what is natural, which is from the outside of the mind in them.
I think that this is an important technical understanding. These criminals have a technique which makes it possible for them to influence individuals from the inside and out. Instead of from the outside and in, which is the natural. The use of the word natural, becomes also immediately at this point in my writing, something to be attentive about. Because, by doing something unnatural; these criminals get some possibilities. So therefore; it is possible to talk about an unnatural technique.
After this, it is possible to think; that this unnatural technique, gives unnatural possibilities, with unnatural results.
It is a kind of opposite way, compared with what is natural. These criminals can use an individual's mind, as something which becomes under their control. The natural is that an individual's mind, can use an influence as something which is under the individual's own control. And here it is another important word; control. These criminals take control over an individual's mind, as something they can use because of an unnatural technique.
This unnatural situation, is that these criminals can have their influence working from the inside in an individual, instead of from the outside. The influenced individual can not know about it, because of how this technique works.
This becomes an important definition for me today. Abbreviated it is; inside and out, instead of outside and in. And something unnatural gives an unnatural control to these criminals. In the end of this little train of thought; it is possible to understand that this is a dangerous unnatural technique which it is necessary to find out about.
This has been difficult for me to find out about, from 1976 it is possible to say that it has taken 37 years. And the first ten years I did not understand a little single thing about that this had been done to me. It has been done in a way, which is so, that I started to get some wrong memory images ten years later, when I was in a completely new situation.
Exactly what they have done to me; is something I do not know. I understand that I should start to find out something wrong about this, that is how this started with me.
I think that if I had had some correct information about how this is going on, it had been easier for me; easier as it had been more correct information for me to know about. But for me, I have had to understand about how I had got wrong memory images and such. And that is difficult, because these wrong memory images, are clearer and stronger than the correct memory. It is to find out about how someone are tricking one selves. When someone are doing something like this, it is possible to find out about it; it is difficult, but not impossible.
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After I was finished with finding out about the music I listen to before 1975; I now also have found old photographs which have been kept in drawers and cupboards. And now this really has been a change with me. I experience to be like I was at that time, and look at what has happened Afterwardss. And all I had wanted to do in the future at this earlier stage of my life, have been damaged. Here is a picture of me with a Spring Pasque Flower in my hand, from the summer 1967 when I was 12 years old. It is up in the mountains north in Gudbrandsdalen in Norway, and it is still some snow from the winter left in the background.
It is a little strange with this flower. For many years I thought that this flower looked like Red Clover, and I looked after that when I was up in the mountains. But I never found it. I wonder if I have been influenced to be like that, because it is no likeness between these two flowers. It is like it has been said to me, that I never shall find that flower again. But on this picture, I hold it in my hand. I have also looked it up in a flora for many years ago, but after that I started to think that it not was a Spring Pasque Flower I found in 1967, and that I not know what kind of flower that was, but on this photo I can see that it was a Spring Pasque Flower.
Such things makes my mind become crisp and clean again. And this little thing, with this little flower, is like a pill which helps clearing up my mind. It feels better also.
Why should someone do something like this, to me? I think the answer can be; that they did not do anything, they only talked something according to what they found out about me. And they did all of it at the same time; found out about things, and then influenced me with something they in a way they found out about to do. They have not done much to influence me, like they have done, they have only used a short time at one day.
When I now look at what happened in 1986, all of it looks unbelievable. And I think it is impossible that something like that can happen, without something else, which makes it be like that. Today it is easy for me to see it that way, but in 1986 I only become more and more confused and muddled in my mind.
A little thing; is how three policemen took me away from my daughter with handcuff on my hands, Friday, January 31, 1986. I had not done a little bit wrong at all. I said to one of the police officer that he could come with me and talk to some other people in one of the apartments in the stairway where my daughter lived with her mother. They could tell that it was something absolutely normal that I regularly came to that place because of my daughter. But the police officer laughed and said that he did not have time to that. All these people used some minutes to totally ruin our lives.
A short time later, I one day sat in that stairway and waited for my daughter and here mother to come home. And that day those who lived on the other side in that storey, came out with something to drink and eat to med. I sat there for a long time, but no one come, and then I went home again.
Instead of talking to these people, the police wanted to listen to a foreigner who did not know anything about my daughter, her mother, or this situation at all. At that time, this person had become totally mentally deranged, and he only talked nonsense.
Because I now work with bringing out newspapers to people's doors, I one day also come to this place again. I did that job because the person who has the job, was away for some reason. My daughter and her mother do not live at that place any longer. Her are two pictures I took from the place now in 2013, where I sat and waited that day in 1986.
I also have a picture from the stairway where I lived in 1986. This photo is from 1987, the bill on the wall is a wash list for the four apartments in this storey. Here my daughter regularly came together with her mother. It was also normal that they came and visited me, beyond what were arranged. Sometimes my daughter rang the door bell before her mother had come up the stairs.
This year I have understand how this has been done to me, and now it is possible for me to begin to work with a correct explanation.
This has been like walking on a road, you every day find out, that is longer than you saw the day before. But now I really think I am on the offensive towards how this has ruined me, and I think that should have been impossible to manage. So I think it can be more difficult to gain, than other humans can understand. It has happened inside of me, nothing has shown outside of me. It is like my face has been turned around, to look inside of me, to find out about many things which it is possible to find out about there. At once after the summer 1986, I did not remember anything at all, of what had happened the months before.
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For some weeks I have had a memory about, that after I collapsed on the floor in 1976; a person come into the room and said, 'then we get him there taken'. I can not at all be sure about such memories, but I think that I now am close to what really happened. The last days I also have got a memory about that a person beside of me says; 'I think you need a doctor, then you are lucky, because we have a doctor here now'. But again the same, it is impossible for me to be sure about remembering such things. Maybe this can be close to what happened.
I now have a more clearly set out situation in my mind, than before. I feel that I have come to an offensive mental position towards these difficulties in my mind. That means that I have a fairly mental position, and that I am near to what this is. But I can not remember what have been done to me. And no one have newer told me about what these criminals are doing, so I do not know that. Something has happened to me, that is something I know.
For a long time I also have had a memory about that when I was out in the corridor, outside of this office room; everything become light and white; the walls, roof, and floor disappeared; all become white; the people there hovered, fell apart, and disappeared. I have thought that someone maybe have said to me that it shall be like that, but I can not remember anything about that someone have said that. Maybe it is something else. This indistinctness is typical and clear; so I have a clear experience of this indistinctness.
The last days I also have thought about that what happened in 1986, was that the connecting line between my daughter's mother's place and her father's place was blocked.
I think it was Thursday, January 23, 1986; maybe it could be Wednesday, January 22, 1986; it was in the middle of that week; I went to talk to my daughter's mother about our daughter. It was also agreed that I should visit my daughter one time every week. The situation was that it was a continuous contact between us. That day my daughter's mother's father was there, and I did not come in to the apartment because of him. This was something incomprehensible for me. He drove me home, and we took a cup of coffee or something similar in my apartment. He said that my daughter's mother was not well. But I had talked to her a few days before, and understood that that not was true.
Here I have made a schematic picture of how it was, and where it was, that something first happened between us in 1986.
This is not the cause for the situation which developed. This situation have a little complicated explanation, which is under its way on this Web Site. This picture is only a clarifying of how it started in 1986.
As other people got involved, they did so much illegal and wrong; that they more and more not wanted an investigating and clear-up. They started to protect themselves against that the situation become cleared-up. But this is also only contributing factors.
The really cause for this situation, is what has been done to me in 1976. And to clear-up that, is difficult. What is difficult, is maybe not to understand it, but to find out about it, because it is so strongly hidden. This is also under its way on this Web Site. It is not totally impossible for me to understand something any longer, it is possible for me to understand a little of it.
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The decisive factor in this connection, is the hidden mental influence I have been exposed for in 1976. But different things which happened in 1986, is the catastrophic destruction for the affected people, which gradually become many. Here I shall mention a few facts about that, so it is possible to get a brief understanding about it. The special here, is how it happened so much wrong. This is only a simple sketch of the situation; this situation had developed for 12 years in 1986, and includes much more. A full account about this, consists of much more. Outsiders who meddled themselves into this situation; have done more cruel than they can understand, against more individuals than they know who are.
At Christmas and Easter we alternated so our daughter was together with her mother's and her father's family every other year. Both families lived another places in the country, and not in Oslo where we lived. In 1985 she was together with her mother's family. And the plan was that she Afterwardss should be together with her father's family at Easter in 1986. Before this Christmas, I had a feeling about that something was wrong. I talked to her mother about that we all could meet and be together at her place after Christmas, at Friday, January 3. She agreed with that.
Every Christmas Eve, our daughter talked to the other parent in the telephone. When I talked to our daughter in the telephone this time, it sounded like she was in a funeral. I said Afterwardss to my family, that it sounded like it is something wrong. But I have to find out about that, when I come home, I said.
When I come to our daughter and her mother; Friday, January 3. I had thought about that it was something wrong, the whole Christmas vacation. When I talked about that to her mother, she answered that nothing was wrong. I had become doubtful. And when we talked about what we should do, I said that our daughter could decide; if we should be together there, or if she should travel with me to my place. She answered immediately that she wanted to travel to my place, she had become afraid of something with her mother's family. Because of this, her mother become confused and sad; but I reacted because of how our daughter had talked in the phone and how she so resolute wanted to travel to my place. It was like she had become afraid of that she not could be together with me any longer.
At my place, our daughter said to me that her mother's family had talked about that she not should be together with me. I calmed down our daughter, and said that it was impossible for them to do that, because it is illegal to hinder her in being together with her father, I said.
I also said that I earlier had talked to a person who at that time worked at the police station near by where she lived, and I could talk to him, if her mother's family started to make problems, I said. I had talked to him when I worked in a youth club in 1983. My daughter become glad, and we had a enjoyable weekend together.
Wednesday, January 15, 1986; I went to the doctor. I had been by this doctor half a year earlier with rheumatism. This time I told the doctor that the treatment had not worked, and that I was ill again. I also said that there was difficulties in my circumstances of life, and that this difficulties become problematic together with the rheumatic bother. I got a little shaken when the doctor answered that I was depressed, and then wrote a sick leave for depression. I now think that this doctor maybe had had many such patients, who not had become well again from her treatments. But that time I had no thoughts about it.
Wednesday, January 15; I also visited my daughter and her mother. Her mother said that she wanted me to come to them and be more together with our child. I now think that was because she had talked with our daughter about the situation with her contact with her mother and father, and that her mother wanted to do something to get our daughter being glad. Her mother and I had always wanted our daughter to have good contact with her other parent.
Friday, January 17; to Sunday, January 19; my daughter and I was together at my place. On the middle of the day at Sunday, her mother called on the phone and said that her family was there, and asked if she could come and take our daughter home earlier because of that. I asked our daughter, she said definitely no. Her mother become sad. I then said, that I could ask our daughter if she could come to her mother earlier if she could be more together with me another time. I said that to our daughter, in a way where I encourage her to do as her mother wanted. Our daughter then said, that if it was like that, that she another time should be more together with me, then it was OK. But she was very firm about that. And I said to her mother, that our daughter now had heard the agreement, and that we had to follow it up, she answered yes. Her mother come, we sat and talked for a while, and I think we had made something to eat and drink; after that, I followed them to the underground station.
On Monday I called her mother, to follow up what we had agreed about on Sunday. And then she only hang up. That happened many times. She said that she not wanted to ruin for our daughter and me.
In the middle of the week, I traveled to their place to talk to her. Then her father was there, and they did not let me in, her father drove me home, we took a cup of coffee or something like that in my apartment. He said that my daughter's mother was not well. I had talked to her a few days before, and understood that it not was true.
In the end of the week, I asked a friend to travel to my daughter's mother, and tell her that I am not dangerous for her. He came back and said that her father was there; her father liked him, he said with a proud smile. 'You shall not be there!' He told me. He also said, that my daughter's mother is not afraid of me. I said to him that he do not understand anything, and that he not should do anything more with these things which he do not understand.
The next Friday, January 31; I went to talk to my daughter's mother again. And this time I was firm about that the situation should be put in order again. Our daughter was at the theatre. Her mother said that she could be back soon. We talked normal again. After some time, she asked me to call my friend who had been there one time before, so he could help me, she said. I answered that he could not help, and that I had told him not to do anything more with this situation. But she asked me again. I thought that she was afraid of being together with me, and said that she could call him if she wanted him to be there, but he can not help us, he can only sit her and do nothing, and I do not want him to come, I said. She called him, and asked him to come and help us.
When this person came, he immediately said to me that I should not be there. I sat on a chair and waited for my daughter to com home, and laughed of him and said that he had to stop talk nonsense. He ran bewildered around in the apartment, and asked where the telephone was. Then he called and said yes to someone. After some time, two police officers came and took me; without any explanation, not a single word. Down on the ground, stood the police officer I had told my daughter about, and he handcuffed me.
These tree police officers drove to two psychiatrists. The psychiatrists and the police officer I had talked to my daughter about, said to me that I had to go to a psychiatric clinic first on Monday morning, otherwise they would not let me go again. I got no explanation for why they did that, and they said nothing about who or what it was that had caused this. And I had no idea at all, about what this could be.
Home in my apartment, I called my daughter's mother. She gave the phone to my friend. He said that he had been so very afraid of me. I now think, that he did know that my daughter's mother was not afraid of me. So he could only have said, that he was too afraid to come to the place, and not done anything more than that. Because he knew that she was not afraid of me. But of course, I should never have asked him to go and talk to my daughter's mother, I did that because I had started to behave confused and illogically, and that was something which had become wrong with me.
I got no explanation, not from the police, not from the psychologist. I have never got an explanation for why they did that. On Monday I went to the clinic, and talked to a psychologist. He said that he did not think that I was insane. Why that, no one of my relatives or other individuals who knew me well, had any idea about that I should be insane. I asked this psychologist if he could help me with the situation. And he said yes. Now I understand that I did this, because I had started to behave confused and illogically, I should never have come to that place a single time. It was illegal to force me to do that. After that I started to talk to him every week. But nothing become better, everything become worse and worse all the time. One day he asked me about the talk about homosexuality. I answered that it was from that frightened friend. One day I had talked to him about that people had become more engaged on experience, action and feelings; than on thinking, theory and understanding. And I said this to this friend in a connection when we talked about pornography. I said that pornography become a part of this experience, action and feelings development which consists of many other things than pornography. I think he had talked to some others about this, and they had said that I said so because I was homosexual. But I am not homosexual, I said. This is one of many untrue rumors which had been spread around, without my knowledge of it.
Both this psychologist, the doctor, and others; got looked up by outsiders who not had any knowledge about this at all. Earlier I had talked to my daughters mother about that other people had delusions and obsessive thoughts. I was taken up with that it had been possible to help these people. These people was well received by the psychologist, the doctor and others; without my knowledge about it. And they did not tell me about what these people said to them about me, all of them was outsiders. They had become more and mort crazy because of their delusions and obsessive thoughts. A short time before, I had been with my family 24 hours a day, for a along time, and no one of them had anything to come and talk to these people about regarding me. They even did not know anything about what was going on at all. It was nothing wrong with me. But Afterwardss, no one of them could understand what had happened to me, because of these people.
The contact between my daughter, her mother, and me; did not become in order again. The next Friday, February 7; I had lied and cried the whole night. There was no one I could trust. And I thought that I had to do something more to get the situation back to normal again. All people around us, behaved untrustworthy. Therefore I went to my daughters mother and slapped her like you do to unconscious people. After that she was normal again, and I become glad, because she was normal again. Afterwardss I went to a kiosk and bought something we could eat. I was away for about 30 minutes or so. I thought that my daughter's mother could go away, if she really was afraid of me, but she was there when I came back. And we talked for about five hours. My daughter's mother said that her father did not understand this, and that her family was so many that she not had managed to do something regarding their behavior. Her family had developed their own delusions. After our daughter not wanted to travel from me earlier than agreed that Sunday, her mother's father had started to talk about that our daughter not wanted to be together with me. Her mother's mother have later said that I beat my daughter. That is not true, because I have never beaten anybody. My daughter's mother even was engaged on that I never get angry. That is because I try to understand, instead of reacting. So this is the truth about such things, I have never lost my head, and I have never beaten anybody, in my whole life. And I have never been angry at my daughter or her mother. I talked very much with my daughter.
Then the telephone rang. She said to me that my doctor should call that day, but she did not want to talk to the doctor, the doctor is so bad to her, she said. She wanted me to talk to the doctor instead. I said that it was not difficult to talk to that doctor, and that she could manage to do that. This was again confused and illogically behavior of me. I should not have trusted that doctor any time at all, even not the first time in 1985. At that time I went to that doctor because I wanted to gather information about my illness, my only reason for talking to the doctor, was that I wanted information. But instead the doctor wrote a sick leave for rheumatism, and told me to come back again. She could make me be well again, she said, but that was not true. Two police officers came and drove me to the doctor's office. She sat there and smiled with a big smile in her face. When I went from the doctor that day, I experienced a catastrophic reaction. I experienced a physical reaction where everything disappeared from my memory. And in the seconds Afterwardss I thought that now I can not remember anything any longer, and after that I forgotten that too. And all of it was gone when I come home.
Everything become worse. Friday, February 28; I had arranged to travel to my family, it is about three hours journey. I wanted to talk with them for the first time, about the situation. They did not know anything about what had happened. I had not talked to them a single word about it yet. I was used to take care of my own things by myself. I talked about this in a phone call to my daughter's mother. And maybe to others too. It was possible to talk to her on the phone for some minutes, but then she hang up. This had also become confused and illogically behavior for me, the contact between us always had been the most loyal, because of our daughter. Thursday, February 27, 1986; the psychologist called me, and asked me to come to his office the next day, Friday, February 28. He did not say why. I said that I should travel to my family. But he said to me that it was much better for me to come to him. I asked if that could get the situation between my daughter and me in order again, and he said that it could.
That weekend they started a test out with me. It was the chief physician at the clinic, who wanted that. But no one said that, before I was at the clinic. They gave me some pills which made me become completely confused. And after this, I become even much more mentally damaged than before. Later that year, the doctor gave me pills which gave me hallucinations. And before the year was over, I could not remember or understand anything any longer. And I never come home and got to talk to my family about what had happened, because Afterwardss I could not remember anything about anything any longer.
The chief physician said that they should say to the family of my daughter's mother, that they had committed me to a mental hospital; even that not was true. It was because they wanted to see what happened, they said. But what is true, I think was that it all was because I not should come home to my family and talk about what had happened. And this was something my daughter then got to know, and I do not think they never corrected it again. They got so very afraid of that someone should find out what they really had done. Afterwards all have lied to my daughter.
If I had come home to my family, this situation could have been solve. And if no one had got involved in the beginning, our daughter, her mother and I, had been able to solve the situation ourselves.
But it is not before this year, 2013, that I know something correct about what has been done to me in 1976. And that is the decisive factor which it is necessary to know about, to understand this. These criminals has done something to developed this situation. And that factor it is necessary to take with, they have made the situation to become more and more incomprehensible. But when that factor is included in the explanation, it becomes possible to begin to understand something.
Her I finish this brief sketch. I think this can be the beginning on a more comprehensive account about what has happened. That have to take more time. I have written this message to already now give a little understanding about the situation.
I have an understanding about being humans, which gives me a meaning of life. I think that our existence shows us that it is an intention behind things in this world. Like that; legs are to walk with, wings are to fly with, and fins are to swim with. This is easy but serious things, which in an easy way tell us, that it is an intention behind things in this world, which we do not know all about what is. Therefore it also is an intention behind being humans. I think that our challenge is to understand.
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In the previous message from Wednesday, August 28; I wrote that the chief physician in 1986, said that they should say to the family of my daughter's mother, that I am insane. The correct about what happened; was that the chief physician said, that they should say to the family of my daughter's mother, that they had committed me to a mental hospital; even that not was true. That did the situation much more destructive than it already was.
In the same message I also wrote that my daughters mother Friday, February 7, 1986; said that her family was so many, that she not had managed to do something regarding their behavior. I think that the correct was, that she said that Friday, January 31. But it was something relevant which we could have talked about both days.
Now I also remember much better about Friday, February 7; it was an undramatic situation between my daughter's mother and me.
I also have made a schematic picture where I bring into focus that it is the hidden activity, which is the most important cause. And it is necessary to clarify that.
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An important effect of this method with mind control, I now have been quite sure about is, that you do not remember anything about what has been done to yourself afterwards. In my case I think I have been influenced to begin remembering about wrong things, to misinform. Correct information is the most dangerous against someone who do something wrong. Therefore it is important for these criminals that others not have correct information about how it works. When we know that you do not remember anything, about what has been done to ourselves afterwards, then we have got a stronger position against these crime; than if we have got wrong information about that you remember something, which even also are only wrong tings.
I now also remember from 1986 that the situation between my daughter's mother and me, was characterized by that she did not like, what happened, and the people who got involved. Friday, February 7; I think we talked about that the situation around us had been dangerous, because we did not know who they were who had started to do all these things against us.
Just before Friday, February 28, 1986; I had talked to my daughter's mother in the phone about that, what had happened, was illegal. And when the psychologist phoned me in the end of the working day Thursday, February 27; I now understand, that it happened after I had talked about, that what had happened was illegal. Then they did the observation, so I did not come home to my family. The same was also the situation before my daughter got hypnotized later that year. Her mother had talked in the phone about that, what had happened was illegal, and after that my daughter got hypnotized.
What already now are available about this situation here on this Web Site, is only a little of it, it is much more wrong which has been done.
I do not think this mind control activity itself come so clearly in to view. But where they are, or not are, can be anywhere of course, when you do not know anything about it.
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Yet another time I have hunted out old photographs. I now have about 500 such old photographs which I have scanned into my computer, and I can see them in slide shows on the screen.
It is clear that my wife at that time and I, from 1976 stopped to photograph from our daily life. That is also something suspicious in this connection, because in 1975 we bought a new camera because we were so fond of taking photographs from our daily life. Therefore we have no photographs from the place we lived from the summer 1976. That was my home as a child from 1960. It was build by a building association, which my parents had joined. They worked on it for many years, and it was a large area with many houses. Here I have a photograph of how that house looked like in 1965, we lived in the right part of this row house. I painted our part of the house brown and white, after we moved in 1976. All the houses in the area changed colors. There had also been put up a low fence out against the sidewalk. The house does not look like on this photo today, both the look and colors have changed.
To follow up what happened afterwards, I also have a picture from the place where I lived from 1979 to 1980. In that period I lived in a loft room on the top of this house, with a window above the image edge here. Since 1980, things have changed at this place.
In 1980 I moved to this apartment building, the yellow one in the middle to the right here. This place has also changed much since that. And I have moved two times after I lived at this place until December 2006.
When I am under way with looking at old photographs, it also comes naturally to take a look at my birthplace, where I lived the five first years of my life, to 1960. This was a little red house in the garden of a larger house. I have always remembered that I lived there, but after looking at many pictures from the place, I now remember even better.
After brushing up my memory about my past like this; I now experience that I am coming out from an unreality, and back to the reality. And that is today, after doing all these things I have done this year, to try to remember more correct about things in my life. I now think that I have been influenced in a way, that should change my whole life from the very beginning. Also from before 1976, when I think this was done to me. And by thoroughly going through my whole life like this, and simultaneous understanding about what has happened; I have come out of this influence. It is like to have walked a long road without knowing what I should find, and in the end of the road I find myself. To have a picture about that, I found this picture from 1974, taken by my girlfriend at that time. We visited her grandparents that summer, and here we are on berry-picking in the wood near to their house.
After this picture, it can be interesting to look four years back from that too, to 1970. This is my confirmation day.
When I was four years old in 1959, I looked like this.
To come out of this unreality, is to come out of the condition where I have been manipulated away from the reality in my life. I shall give one example, which I think is very clear about this. I have been influenced to think, that I remember something from the time just before or after we got married. One day we visited some of my relatives whom I had had much contact with, in a family party with many people; one of my relatives wanted to talk to my wife. I smiled and wanted to join the conversation, but the person got angry at me, and wanted to talk to my wife when I not listening. Afterwards I asked my wife about what it was, and she answered quietly that it was nothing. This memory image works like I remember a dream, but I think it is, that I remember something real. Different such things bring me into a condition, where I get manipulated into an unreality.
It is after I understood, that I had been influenced to write down a name, Syver Volden, to later look it up, and then start to believe that I had talked with that person; that I started to understand how these things works. When I wrote that name down in a notebook, it happened in a short moment within a few seconds, and I did not think about it neither before nor later. Many years later, I not remembered how I wrote it down, but started to look at this note as a proof, for that I had talked with that person. All of these is only something I have been influenced to. This note is therefore at proof for that these criminals are doing such things.
This whole situation, is about being manipulated into an unreality. And the solution is to unmask these manipulations, and to find out what is the real reality. This situation has influenced many individuals, and brought all of them into an incomprehensible unreality. A clear up will bring all these individuals out of this unreality.
Here I have written down a few correct things about these things, which make it possible to start to understand about this crime, which is going on. I have also understood that it is possible for these criminals to do different other things with this method; like influence to laugh, be angry, be glad, be sad, etc. It seems for me that they maybe can have power only by saying such words, and maybe by talking about different motivating thins which afterwards influence one's feelings and thoughts. The examples with the family party, and how I wrote down a name; are very clear, it is something I know. The other thoughts I have written about here, are something I think about how it can be. I also have wondered if it is possible for them to get individuals to work mentally as they want, so that individuals think and understand and use their creativity, as these criminals want them to do. This can be in many ways, because I think that these criminals play people out against each other in all directions of opinions etc.
How my hair style had changed in 1974, is also something to notice. At that time it had been correct for me to have that hair style, and that was because of influence from the surrounding world. I wonder if these criminals have been able to do something to cause this change in behavior in the West. This behavior was characterized by high ideals about a natural life and making a peaceful Earth. But it was also characterized by a destructive interest for drug abuse. Music had also begun to take up more of the time than before. And it can look like that a great part of the young generation in the whole western world had been influenced to a self destructive movement, were they lose real political influence and power. If this is correct, I think it can have been done by having some individuals to start to strongly believe in these things; first high ideals, then step by step it all ended up in self-absorbed drug abuse. In 1974 I did not touch drugs, I had started to dislike such things, because it ruined many peoples life in different ways.
The peace and quiet which it is necessary to arrive and maintain, to develop democratic possibilities; can also be a target for these criminals to ruin in one way or another.
These criminals do not gain their results by talking about what they want to do. In secret they do things to others. How they behave themselves, can be all kinds of camouflage which hide what they really are doing. These criminals are very sly. Whatever you want to do, they can put something destructive into the way you think you shall do it, in a way you not so easy understand. But this is only one of different possibilities I think they have. For me it has been much better after I have understood what they are doing. So I think it is possible for all to do much better after understanding about what these criminals are doing. I only know a little of it. But it is possible to understand something about what it can be possible to do with such methods.
My own life has in many ways ended up with the opposite of what I in the beginning wanted to do. For example I had thoughts about living out in the country, and not in the city as I have ended up, etc. But regarding so bad criminals, I think it in the end is something good to understand about it, as I now do. I think these criminals are so weak, that they never can do something, witch disclose them. They can only do their evil, sly, and weak things; witch become so catastrophic, by other people who they have influenced.
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A few days ago, I in a moment got a clear understanding about something. It dawned upon me that I must have been influenced to buy a special knife in 1976; for then many years later do something strange with this knife. Here is a picture of this unusual knife, identical to that one I bought. It was made by AS Helle Fabrikker in Norway, but are not manufactured any longer.
As you see, this knife has an unusual handle. This handle is not made to have the best grip, but to have a special look. The knife was usable for many different purposes, and was useful to have at hand. The knife was used to made food on camping trips, and to made things from wood. Also at home I had the knife within reach, and used it for different things every now and again. It could usually lay on my desktop or kitchen table. I never thought about that there was something special with this knife.
I got my first knife when I was a child. We played with knifes in different ways. We threw them at tree trunks. We threw them at the ground, and drew lines within a marked area; we called it to cut land. Two people did this every other time, and drew a line where the edge pointed, and got in that way land within the marked area. We also made different things from wood. One day I got a good knife at my birthday, from some of my relatives; and that knife was still the knife I used on camping trips and such, before I bought this special knife. This first knife was later used together with different other tools.
From the beginning I now and then placed the knife with its flat part back at the handle, on the table; so the blade of the knife pointed up. This was something I did because it was possible, the construction of the knife invited to do so. I thought about it as something funny.
Now I think that this knife has to do with one of the important parts of what have been done to me. I think that I have been influenced to the following things.
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Buy that knife in 1976.
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Start to place it on its back now and then.
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When this situation started in 1986, I should place the knife on its back on the table in my sitting room, as something I did without any special thoughts about it.
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I should begin to have some indistinctness thoughts about that something, like what they were doing against me in 1976, was something dangerous around me in 1986, which I had to protect me against. (I did not remember anything form 1976 in 1986.) And because of that, I little bit begin to think about the knife as a possible weapon if I needed it, but I did not think that really was the situation. It was more a psychological picture about that something indistinct was dangerous, which I had to protect me against.
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Others who visit me, will be afraid of the knife, but I shall only think about it all as something unimportant. I had that knife standing on my table for a few days, and it was only one person who saw it.
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Many years later, my relation to knives should gradually change, and become the same kind of positive interest for more and more dangerous weapons instead. (I think it is 'the pen' these criminals fear most of all, which means that people find out and understand correct about what they are doing.)
Here I stop this summary. These are strong elements of this part. I do not want to ruin that with bringing in more suppositions about this today. But the last days I have experienced that this can be one of the key factors in this situation.
The strong experience regarding this knife, influenced me to make a schematic picture about this influence inside of me. An normal person to the left, and an influenced person to the right. 'Myself' gets its influence from me. 'Others' influence me from the outside of me. 'Mind control' has been tricked into me, whiteout that I know about it. These things in the bottom; influence my 'feelings', 'thoughts', and 'will'. All of these influences how I 'act'. Normal and influenced people can influence each other both ways. But influenced people have something especially inside of themselves which it is important to find out about and understand about. I think that correct understanding about these things can help very much, maybe also completely.
The way these tings are for me today, seems like, that it is no problems to work with these influence; to understand about it, and change it. But it is necessary to understand about it, to be able to do something with it. I think that this method does it possible to causes psychological influences, as its power. Today it is easy for me to deal with this things inside of me. But for some months ago, I thought that their plane was, that I in the end should be totally insane. In that period I had this schematic picture clearly visualize in my mind, and I was concentrated about understanding about the different parts inside of me. I was relaxed and concentrated about things I had to do every day, and everything went out fine, no problems. But it is wrong to say, that it not was hard to manage. But it was absolutely possible, and I was not at any time afraid of that it should go wrong. I thought that my own fear is the only dangerous with this.
Today all of that are over, and I feel very balanced in my mind. I think it is how they have tricked me with these tings, witch have been difficult, it has tricked me in a way I not understood.
What happened earlier, was that these criminals had influenced me to start to find out wrong about these things, in a way that should ruin me more and more. That was the smart thing they had done to me. But today I understand that. If they not had done that, I think that I my whole life could have been totally ignorant, about what had been done against me.
If I had known about all of this in the beginning, so had nothing of it happened.
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After I made the schematic picture 'Inner processes' yesterday, September 7; I got a clear understanding about that the 'Mind control' part in one's mind is in a special way.
I thought about that 'Myself' has a kind of spiritual source, it has its own processes and such as its causes.
To look at 'Others' as a part, that part also has its own processes as its sources. First; other individuals have their inner mental processes, behind what they influence one with. Next; one has one's own processes, which understand and associate etc. regarding that influence.
But the 'Mind control' part is not natural. It has been placed inside one's mind, like an affecting component which has been hidden in one's mind. This is; that the 'Mind control' part has not come into one's mind in any normal ways. And what can that part do? Get one to write a note without understanding anything about it. Buy a special knife. It seems like it has been possible to get tings to happen at a special point in time, like in 1986. Manipulate one's mental associations, to get one to have manipulated feelings, wishes, will, etc. Something typical I have found out, is that they get one to do something which hide its real intention, so one do not know what it afterwards will cause. To make one to want to die for what they want one to do, is also something they do with this method.
This shows that it must be possible to do many different things with this method. And it is also possible to understand; that they most hide all about this, to get it to work; and that is this method's weakness.
But the reason for this note, is that I got this clear understanding about that this 'Mind control' part has been placed inside one's mind. No kind of processes has worked to integrate the content of this part into one's own personal manner. And I experience that different such understandings makes this problem more and more understandable.
In the text from yesterday I also write about that I think that their plane is, that I in the end should be totally insane. A little more about what that was; are that the whole black and empty universe takes me with all its power. I can not do anything correct, all I do become wrong. I have to give up against something inside of me, which totally is able to ruin me, without I can do anything abut it. But when these were on the worst; I behaved calm and concentrated me about every single useful thing I had to do every day, one by one. And after some weeks and months, all of it was gone. And I did everything I did correct the whole time. I controlled myself. Typically, mistakes in a way hides were I am sure about that everything is correct, so I have to strictly follow routines to control and correct myself.
I have also thought about that these criminals are not doing politics. These things are about facts and knowledge regarding the development of mankind. For me personal it is about to find out correct, similar to understanding a clockwork.
I also think that to isolate individuals, who understand about this, makes it more possible for them to attack these few people, with their methods for doing so. Therefore it is important to get the attention about these things to expand, and expand, and expand, more, and more, and more.
Now I have other things I have to do for some time.
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After I made the schematic picture 'Inner processes', and found out that I must have been influenced to buy a special knife in 1976. That knife become something important regarding what has happened with me.
To jump directly on it, I her shall write what I today clearly experience. Now I experience, that the note in the notebook, 'Syver Volden'; this 'special knife'; and that I in 1976 said to my wife that time, 'that she could move to here parents, so I got time to prepare for the qualifying examination'; – these three things are important fundamental parts in what has happened to me. When I understand about this, I experience that I have disconnected all that they have wanted to do with me. I think about it in a way, like that I have found the plug and drawn it out of the socket outlet.
This knife I have started to think that they have influenced me to change to a dagger. And it is the handle which shall symbolize daggers. When I saw this knife for the first time, I thought that I did not like it, but so suddenly I thought it was funny.
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Before I this year found out about how this works, I had started to buy some weapons, because I thought it was necessary to have them. So this is nothing to laugh about! I think it is, as I her understand. These weapons I threw at the rubbish dump for nearly a year ago, so they are today burned. I did that, after I understood that these criminals had tricked me to think that I needed weapons. So today I do not have any of them.
The schematic picture 'Inner processes' is also important. Because this is not anything someone has talked to me about in a normal way. Today I think that I have been influenced in some of my mental parts where such communications not works at all. I have been influence in some more fundamental parts in my mind, and it is impossible for me to remember it, but I can understand about it.
These criminals do not hide how good they are; they hide how bad they are. Among many things they can do, I think they got individuals to become something bad, even if they at the staring point was something good. But this is only one example. It is much it is possible to do with this method, and I do not know what they are doing.
I made this note, even I now have other tings to do, so it is available immediately. Because I think that they in one way or another maybe have build their influence in me on these three things. So when I understand about these three things, everything of it has gone, it is nothing left of what they have done to me.
Now I have other things to do. And I need some time to really write more thoroughly about this, maybe a year or two.
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Today I also got some thoughts about these things, which I take the time to put out on the Web Site, even I now must take care of other things I have put off too long.
I now think that it is impossible for me to remember the minutes or hours I got influenced with this method. That is a problem; but it is also to have found a fact, and at fact is a step nearer to find out about this. Whit understanding that, we understand more about what this is.
Here is the reason for this note: After the last message, I have started to think that I have been told; that myself has been taken away, and another person has started to slowly develop. This says something about what this is. It also says something about that changes they want to gain with me, needs time; that means that time is a necessary factor they have to use, regarding what they have done to me.
I have also thought about that it has been necessary to get to isolate me from other individuals, to get their influences to develop in me as they want. Maybe this is something general with some of the things these criminals are doing; to hinder other influences regarding what they have influenced to happen.
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Yesterday I made a new CV page on the Web Site, with a link on the action bar above. After that; I thought that I have been influenced to not go in for and continue with one particular goal, or a few appointed goals. My experience of my own situation right before 1986, was that I had ended up disillusioned; and even I was interested in may things, it was nothing which especially motivated me strongly.
I made the CV chronological because its aim is to both show what has happened to me, and make it possible to see what I have been doing of such things in my life. I have always had strong interests which I care about in my leisure time. So what I have done of works and such, is only some of my background.
When the CV was finished; I started to think that in the seventies, trade and production met peoples demand. Today it is the demand which is created. And I thought that this can be something these criminals are doing with their methods. After that I thought that people can be upset about that. But I think that the problem is about finding out about these things, and understand about it. We en up wrong because it is something which goes on, that we do not understand; when we understand about it, then we are able to do something with what we understand. The situation is not in that way hopeless. But we must find out and understand about these things.
I have also thought about that opinions from experts about the societies, can be compared with bricklayers and carpenters. According as which of them you ask about how to build a house, you will get different answers. So it is with social experts, I think; and many other things too. Therefore it is important to unmask this crime, because that can be that it ends up with, that idiots have framed our societies and the world in a way we just not know about and understand. When things are correct, different views of things are a strength and something positive.
When I have these thoughts up in my mind, I also get some thoughts about what can have gone on in our past regarding political ideology. And that is, that these criminals have ruined for us; that the communism, can be like something good to have in your pan (together with other ideas), but it does not taste so good alone. This is what I think these criminals have wanted to ruin regarding that. And I think that they have influenced to different kinds of narrowness. Here I have made a schematic picture about how such things can be. This is only something to start with, not a finished picture of how such things can be.
When I first have moved into such problems. I also have some very simple thoughts about the Cold War, which came after the Second World War. It was like having so much weight as possible on both sides of the lever, to get it to balance. It was not necessary. I think that these criminals can have done something to get that problem to be so big as it was. And that got to hamper the people; something they want, I think.
But this is some of my thoughts about such things. I will primarily try to find out about what has happened to me in this connection. I think that is the best I can do, so that is what I am concentrated on.
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Now I have been focused on one specific detail; of how this mind control I have been influenced of, works. This is how one influenced intention can get a strong boost; so all other thoughts, feelings, and will; are pushed aside. In such a moment, this intention gets an overwhelming control over one's mind. I have understood that this has happened with me in different ways, for different aims. Therefore this is something I have experienced that can be used in different ways, for different aims. Below I have made a schematic picture of how I can visualize it. This picture is not at all a roentgenogram of the mind regarding this, it is only a way to make it more clear what happens. This picture is not how it is, it is a way of clarifying what I have experienced. And it is descriptive.
This can also be hold together with an experience of that this is something one have to do.
I have understood that this can move a person step by step; and relocate the person both physically to another place, and mentally. This can be done in a way like a circle, where you in the end have ended up with what you least of all had wanted to be or do.
This influence are not weaker in time, for example 30 or 40 years and more, although the drug is out of the body immediately. Over time this influence can be stronger, because how it starts to use a step by step tactic to increase its influence's power.
My experience is that all of these influences fade after some time, if it not gets to have one's involvement. But these criminals try to trick one's mind. Different things can also develop without that oneself understands, what goes on with oneself. So this method is used in a very sly way, to get its effect.
This is difficult to detect. One person who is doing this in the world, is terribly dangerous. Two are more dangerous that that, etc. For example; it can be possible for one person to travel around in the world for years, to influence many individuals to later do something at the same time. I think that these criminals are more than two people, and that is extremely dangerous. But if we start to find out and understand about this, it becomes much more difficult for these criminals to succeed.
This example is only one, in a long list of possibilities which are possible with this method.
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What I have done on this Web Site this year; is to write down different notes, which are about how I this year have started to understand much more correct about this, than before. That started in March this year. In March I understood that I had been influenced to write down a name (Syver Volden) in a notebook in 1976; for later starting to believe that I had talked to this person, even I never have meet that person. After this I have noted down about how I after March this year, have understood more correct about this. With the latest note from Friday, September 20, I experience that I am back in myself, as I was before this influence was done against me. And I placed this picture below, from 1975, on my computer screen; to see that person I then was.
During these months this year, from March; I really have got a understandable view over what has happened to me. I think that I now in one way or another, within a short time, some weeks maybe; shall start to do something more orderly with these notes. Today I feel that I am completely out of this influence. And now I think that any time earlier, if someone had told me something correct about this, I had been out of this at that earlier point in time too. When I understand about it; it is like something, which not get any influence over me at all.
This influence has both been something I have been tricked to start to believe; and something I not have understood what has been.
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